- Date posted
- 3y
Pocd
I don’t think I’ve seen anyone really describe what I experience with unwanted sexual feelings like I get this strong need to m*sterbate to these thoughts and it seems a lot like desire because of how I feel such a need to act on it when I would never ever do that I could never be a pedophile. But what if I’m in denial and one because of this strong feeling like that’s what I want to do and it’s not just a groinal response it gets really intense but I never have acted on it and never will. I would never in a million years want to hurt a child ever.. I just want to give up. I’d kill myself if I was actually a p and that’s what makes me think I’m in denial cuz I actually would do that if I ever gave in to the thoughts in any way… I hate this. And I apologize to anyone who has helped me under my posts because I am grateful for your help but it seems like no one with pocd truly goes through what I do. Also, I realize how annoying I’m being with the amount of times I post constantly I just am so desperate to hear that I’m not alone in my experience. I’m sorry