Feeling like I’m having attacks everyday again

I’ve been struggling with my ROCD again lately and it’s making me panic that I don’t wanna be with my fiancé. Of course the stress of that makes me snappy with him so it only makes things worse. idk what to do about it I try my erp it just seems like it keeps budding back up. Sometimes I wish I had a normal brain. Just having such a hard time lately. I’ll be happy one minute then I get triggered and when it’s about him it sticks..

OCD! At The Disco

79d ago

This is meeee! I'm not engaged but I've been doing so well for MONTHS. Now I just kinda fell back into a hole and I'm not sure why. I completely understand being short with him too, and then I think "well if I loved him I wouldn't be so irritated all the time."

Anonymous

79d ago

Those are my exact same thoughts. what’s crazy is some times I feel more in love than I could ever think possible then the next hr/day I just get triggered and start questioning myself. Btw love your name

OCD! At The Disco

79d ago

@Anonymous Yeah exactly! While he's at work I'm somewhat fine because I'm not being triggered but then when he gets home it gets worse which makes me worse because then I feel like I subconsciously don't want him around, when in reality I'm just... triggered. It all started because he actually DID irritate me the other day, and then I kinda just got stuck on it I guess. And thank you!