Feels like I genuinely want the thoughts and I'm happy about them š£ I find myself think about a life with a woman and my boyfriend doesn't even feel like my boyfriend anymore.. This is just all too hard.
i understand iām so sorry you feel like this. keep going i believe in you. donāt be afraid to ask for help. you deserve to feel good
Thank you so much for the encouragement ā„ļø
I feel this so much. It feels like Iām just torturing myself by continuing to push through on the grounds of living the life I want. Itās like all the things I wanted and dreamed of before this no longer excite me or make me happy. Itās hard to say I even want them anymore and im engaged to the love of my life(even saying that feels like a lie)ā¦.. sad
Me too. I feel like i would be torturing myself if I continue like this š£š which further "proves" that it must be true... It's so damn hard and I feel so guilty. If you don't mind me asking, how long have you been dealing with this?
@Material.Gorl Since October of last year:(
@alandy Sorry to hear that š stay strong and continue pushing forward no matter what ā¤ļø
@Material.Gorl You too friendā¤ļø better days ahead!
just crying cause i feel like im never going to recover and just have to be lesbian, even tho i love my boyfriend so much. thoughts donāt even give me anxiety anymore idk what to do, im just so done, feel like itās all real and that i want it(when i dont). any tips or anything, idk how to keep going
I donāt know if itās SOOCD. I no longer feel anxious in the moment when I think about women, and itās like my imagination wants me to think about it and get aroused. I donāt want to be gay, but maybe I am after all. In my life I havenāt been so sexually driven before (when I was living with a man, or when being single) but now all I can think about is having sex with a woman. I donāt want to, but somehow my body does and it feels like my mind have changed to accept it to.. feel so sad This all started around 4 weeks ago..
I donāt know what to do anymore, this started nearly a year ago and caused so much stress and panic attacks over the thought of loosing my boyfriend. Now it just feels real and that he always liked girls and suppressed it (but like the boys i always liked in the past were real feelings they had to be and with my boyfriend i love him) but i havenāt got much anxiety now feels like i want the thoughts and that they donāt bother me even tho they used to, this seems to happen every time i get a lil better, idk just feels so true and thatās what i acc want with no stress, just a lil scared.
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