Are you worried that you are going to start liking the thoughts or just be okay with them?
im sure i’ll never like them but recently every single day has just been filled with thoughts about pocd and it doesn’t seem to be getting any better so i feel like my thoughts aren’t even intrusive anymore :(
Yeah I think at some point even the most disturbing thoughts starts to feel like the norm and that’s really scary cause you start doubting yourself but I think trough doing ERP eventually life will get better and you’ll start to feel more like yourself again even though it’s super hard but when the bad days starts being everyday you have to do the hard thing to fight for the better days.
Even if you realize you're straightforwardly into kids, the fact that you're trying to get help for it means that you're less likely to actually harm any child. The majority of pedophiles are not child sex abusers (https://doi.apa.org/doiLanding?doi=10.1037%2Fabn0000213), and the majority of child sex abusers are not pedophiles (https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0924933814777314) — they just choose a child as an "easy" victim.