Hard day :/ need support

Having a difficult time today, it's like when I improve a bit OCD ups the ante. My brain won't be quiet and it sucks :( When I hold my baby, I get intrusive thoughts and urges and every little muscle twitch I make feels like I did something wrong. I hate it so much, I try to do my ERP but sometimes the thoughts are so fast and powerful that it's hard :/ and sometimes I feel like I'm doing things wrong. Idk. I've been rationalizing and stuff a lot. It's like the more I do, the more I think "at least I don't want to do that!", then I feel like I want to...it twists every little thing to feel like this is who I am :(. Then I panic. It's like it wants certainty of me doing a bad thing so I can isolate as a bad person without a doubt. Anyone else feel like this? it really sucks rn and I could use encouragement :/ thanks

Username: Sweetpants1985

Date posted: 216d ago

I feel like this Everyday, recently it’s been bad for a couple months. Four years ago though right after I had my son I felt this a lot, and it left me feeling broken.

Username: Sweetpants1985

Date posted: 216d ago

I’m really sorry your experiencing these things

Username: HugsToAll

Date posted: 216d ago

Thank you for sharing, I'm sorry you're feeling like that too :/ it's nice to know I'm not alone. We can do this :)

Username: Tyran

Date posted: 216d ago

I know the road to recovery can get extremely tough and incredibly frustrating . I’ve walked that road 2 years ago. An I’m here to say whats on the other side is worth it🤘🏼. Hint: your feelings cannot be trusted because they are controlled by ocd. Do not try to use them to prove you’re a good person or to prove that you wouldn’t do a particular thing. You know you’re a good person somewhere deep inside of you that can’t be explained ❤️ don’t try to figure it out. just accept it and continue with your daily activities. You’ve got this🙏🏽❤️🎊👌😁

Username: HugsToAll

Date posted: 216d ago

Thank you so much :) that really helps me, I really appreciate it :)