Having another bad day

I was trying really hard not to like google incessantly and go on Reddit and stuff but I caved and I went down this rabbit hole of watching tik toks of women coming out and like comparing/contrasting my experiences with them. How do you stop yourself from doing these things? Especially when it feels like you have to watch the videos in order to like, “figure it out” and whatever. SO-OCD is SO HARD especially when sexuality is so fluid anyway. It’s so frustrating!!

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

If you think it's fluid then would you even be having an issue? I have this type. First just stop watching and googling, youre not going to figure it out. I did that for months and it only made it worse. The less you care and the less you give into your compulsions the better it gets. Ive made some decent progress just by staying away from that stuff. I know im straight. Don't get me wrong i still have bad days or a trigger but i know its my ocd and the feelings no matter what they be that are caused by it. Youll know its your ocd, sit with the feelings, dont compulse and it'll pass. It wont last forever. The more you google and yet more you try and figure it out, the more anxiety and questions you'll have. I've been where you are so i can sympathize.

Username: Ashleyx0xAshleyx0x

Date posted: 2y ago

Just keep saying “maybe I am maybe I’m not”

Username: Bng10160Bng10160

Date posted: 2y ago

Yea I definitely need to do that more. I think also because I’m in a relationship and live with a man who I love very much, it makes me feel soooo guilty even having the thoughts and then I’m like shit gotta figure it out so I don’t hurt him. But yea I deleted tik tok for a while I should probably do that again

Username: Bng10160Bng10160

Date posted: 2y ago

And yea exactly like I keep telling myself that like obviously im into men and I’ve chosen a man so who cares if im into women too?? But of course bc ocd it feels like I have to be ~absolutely sure~ and not make a mistake

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

You dont need to be sure. Trust me i know its hard. Hardest thing I've ever had to do. Its disgusting, embarrassing and down right a mental exhaust. Stay true to you know who you are and your values, don't care, don't give into compulsions and things will start to slowly fall back into place. Maybe, maybe not is okay to do. For me personally that didnt work. You need to find out what works for you

Username: Bng10160Bng10160

Date posted: 2y ago

It’s not even like I’d care if I’m gay I just want someone to tell me lol. Like I’d be a badass hot lesbian but I’d love to know for sure which I guess I’ll never have

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Not caring is a good start

Username: Bng10160Bng10160

Date posted: 2y ago

Like obviously I’d prefer to stay in my hetero relationship but I know I’d have a happy life with a woman if I had to as well

Username: mentowillness

Date posted: 4y ago

i just did about 40mins of erp scrolling through tiktok watching bisexual videos and boy am i triggered. i noticed myself doing sneaky compulsions tho. for example: the tiktok was like “if you liked these characters when you were young then you’re definitely bisexual” and they’d show the characters for example prince eric and ariel and i remember when i was young how obsessed i was with prince eric like i wanted to full blown marry him and i’d always pretend i was ariel. so then my sneaky compulsion was “you see you’re straight you only liked eric” but this one tiktok almost made me cry and i freaked out because i was overthinking why i almost cried: it was this guy talking about how he was straight his whole life until 2016 where he wasn’t sure and now he’s bi and when i tell you my heart fell to my stomach i wanted to cry but i didn’t i just say with the anxiety the thing is i know you’re not suppose to stop until the anxiety goes down but my anxiety didn’t go down at all it’s rose a lot. like every tiktok i saw it just got higher and higher. am i doing something wrong?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: b13

Date posted: 2y ago

I don’t know what to do because I want to stop imagining scenarios/checking but I feel like if I force myself to stop doing that, then I’m in denial? Like I’ll start to think ‘you’re trying not to think about it because you don’t want to acknowledge it’. Does that make sense? Or like my tiktok feed right now is just full of lgbt content because I use it all as a means of checking, and I don’t want to do it anymore but I feel like if I don’t watch them, I’m purposefully avoiding because I’m in denial or something. I want to scream.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Crying alone

I wanted to look up videos of how to recover from Bi sexual ocd but it’s a theme I struggled w back in 2018 and it went away and ever since i was living my life and now it’s back … literally went from harm ocd to bisexual ocd and now I’m getting extreme false attraction and groinal responses. And I saw a TikTok girl saying she had intrusive thoughts about being a lesbian and she came out as lesbian 4 years later and I just can’t stop sobbing. I don’t wanna be attracted to girls I’m sorry. Nothing against them but I feel grossed and can’t accept it. I can’t even do erp because I cannot accept these thoughts. My third time w this theme- what if I’m in denial? Can someone please help me overcome this??

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