Xxmaddie_shawxx
- Date posted
- 7y
Xxmaddie_shawxxXxmaddie_shawxx
- Date posted
- 7y
I think part of my issue is is that I have never been with a women and even tho I don't want too my brains like well how do u know u don't if u have never tried it
SpecterSpecter
- Date posted
- 7y
Yeah same with me I have zero desire to be with another guy but i must be bi sexual I don’t get aroused by guys nor have I ever been attracted to one or even had a crush on a guy but I still must be at least 1% gay or something I don’t think i can be completely heterosexual a straight person doesn’t think about the same gender 10 times a day just to check to make sure they don’t get aroused by same sex thoughts I’m in a position where if I do become bisexual it would be a lie but if I even became mostly straight that would also be a lie because I have zero desire to be with a guy romantically or sexually but I don’t mind being friends with a guy
Xxmaddie_shawxxXxmaddie_shawxx
- Date posted
- 7y
I'll look At girls on insta and wonder think wow they're really pretty and then spiral into wondering if I'm attracted to girls and it just goes on and on like if a girl kissed me would I kiss back and all of that
SpecterSpecter
- Date posted
- 7y
Yeah I know school started for me and every time I see a guy I get intrusive thoughts and I’m scared that if I look at a guy he’ll think I like him or something like I was looking around class a lot and I keep worrying in my head if I’m attracted to any guys I don’t think I can live like this anymore there’s no way I’m straight but there is no way I’m gay or bi either I literally have 0 desire to be with guys except friends but I still just obsess
Sunshine1Sunshine1
- Date posted
- 7y
Its the HOCD guys! It plays tricks on your mind. Does this to me all the time!!! When the OCD goes away. The thoughts are gone & we wouldnt think twice!!!!!
mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 7y
my HOCD has hitting me hard this week and i relate to all of this. i had a recent encounter w a guy like a week ago where we made out and i really liked it and it made me super happy but here i am a week later questioning it wondering if i actually liked it or if it’s my OCD just telling me i did as reassurance. then i go on insta and see pics of girls that are pretty and get scared that i’m attracted to them then i get into a cycle where i look at girls who are pretty to see if it arouses me at all and when groinals happen i get scared and i don’t know what to do
mktropeanomktropeano
- Date posted
- 7y
it’s honestly more than just thinking you’re gay when you know you’re not. i’ve noticed that mine is a loss of identity and a fear of losing control of who i am and this is just how my ocd plays it out and it’s terrifying
BrookenoelBrookenoel
- Date posted
- 7y
Hey specter, no one is ever 100% gay or straight at all actually. And it doesn’t mean your bi or anything either! Why? It means your human. You can get aroused by gay porn, but be straight, thinking someone of the same sex is attractive doesn’t mean your gay either. But that’s basic stuff. You can even get aroused by a man but it doesn’t mean you want them. That’s called sexual non coordinance. It means your genital response to anything is expected. I recommend going to conscioustransitions.com and looking at the article about “genital response meaning desire”
SpecterSpecter
- Date posted
- 7y
@brookenoel yeah I don’t get aroused by gay porn or anything like that but I know people can get aroused by anything
SpecterSpecter
- Date posted
- 7y
Xxmaddie_shawxx people who tell you that the only way to know your sexual orientation is if you try it are lunatics you know you can still know your sexual orientation with out trying it
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