I literally am so cautious of what i do. 18+

TRIGGER WARNING 18+ I was literally just moving me dog towards the end of the bed, the way my hands was on her was like her lower back and it makes me feel like I wanted too touch that area on purpose, and then same when i’m changing my clothes, or if i’m doing something or wearing things it makes me feel like i’m doing it on purpose or it’ll feel like that, same with if i’m doing something sexual, it’ll make me think i’m doing it because of a wrong feeling, or if i’m trying to cuddle my boyfriend or just stretch out my legs in a way that a certain body part would move, makes me think i’m doing something too an intrusive feeling or thought? and I think why I’m so cautious is because one time I was enjoying myself, i’m a sexual way, and I had an intrusive thought come in when I climaxed or whatever and it felt like I liked the thought, but even then I was trying too do a compulsion too show myself you don’t like that stuff, and then afterwards when I was done, I started too freak out was throwing up, shaking, because it felt like i liked the thought or something like that, but then again I feel like it’s completely different from how my brain is making it, so I usually try not too look into that situation because it bothers me, and it’s so hard for me too tell with the intrusive thoughts and etc because I have sensations or whatever, so I guess when I have that I automatically think I like the thought, but then again there are times where it bothers me or it feels like an anxiety feeling, regardless if i “like the thought” or not, it’s just really confusing, and sometimes I worry, which I have heard so many people feeling like that, but it’s just confusing, and it’s like regardless if I feel like i like the thought or not I still get anxious, because I don’t wanna feel like I like the thought, or just simply trying too tense my body so I don’t have a response or whatever it’s called, Idk if anyone can relate just thought i’d share, because there’s times where I don’t like the thoughts and there are times where it feels like I like the thoughts and I get worried, and then like I said there are times where i’m tense so I don’t feel like I like the thoughts because it freaks me out when I feel like that, but I have intrusive thoughts towards older people, family, my dog, kids, and it was just kids at first but now it’s towards all of the above including my friends.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

and it’s like i’m so self aware of what my body is feeling, and touching, and where my hands are.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

i just hope i’m not alone.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

This is the only thing I have left is the app, I just feel so useless sometimes.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

the only place I can rant.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

the only place I can find someone to talk too.

nomel4se1

Date posted: 3y

I am so sorry that you feel that way. Sexuality is so frustrating when you have OCD. I don't deal with the same thoughts as you but with the fear that I wanna cheat, fvck every man, that a like flirting and that kind of things. Makes everything not enjoyable. But that isn't you, it's just your thoughts. And a debilitating disorder. You can get better, don't give up. I don't have much advice because I deal with something similar and I'm on a crisis right no, but you are not alone, believe me.

Anonymousk

Date posted: 3y

I’m sorry you’re going through this it’s really tough. You’re not alone bc I have moments where I freak out cuz I feel like I like or want my thoughts too! It scares me because I don’t want to like them and it sometimes feels like I want to act on them or that they’re a desire but I’m like nooooo I don’t want this. It’s confusing with ocd it really is.

grellen2000

Date posted: 21w

Intrusive thoughts (21+ please)

I need advice for intrusive thoughts. I used to feel like I could handle them. They weren’t nearly as bad as the things that related to my actual life. But now, I’m suffering. I haven’t had a sexual experience in over a year that didn’t involve constant intrusive thoughts. Most are somehow related to kids and I keep chasing off the thoughts but it’s so bad. I know you’re supposed to ignore them but I don’t know how I can just ignore that and continue what I’m doing. But they’re coming on stronger. I had one earlier I could not get rid of just as things finished so the thought came on strongly just before my orgasm hit and now I feel absolutely disgusting. I hated the thought and I know it’s not me and it was not enjoyable but it still feels like I was getting off to it. I feel sick. I’m so fucking tired of these thoughts. They’re in my every day life too and it’s all the time. I just want it to stop but ignoring it feels so wrong. What should I do?

Lulu~

Date posted: 20w

Someone please help me right now

I’m a csa survivor which made me develop hypersexuality while actually being a asexual individual. (Where I did CP and talked to groomers and sexted, ect ect) A few months ago I’ve started to heal, but the fact that I’ve seen so many private parts since I was idk, young? I imagine them everywhere, it’s really frustrating and sometimes I also get intrusive thoughts about other kids or my siblings. It’s deeply distributing but I also kind of think of it from a curious kind of aspect which I despise too. Honestly I have a hard time with any kid in underwear, my intrusive thoughts have been ALOT the last months and they’re really really overwhelming. I also easily go into overanalysing them or even trying to figure out more clearer the thoughts to “test myself”. I think, I hope. Idk it’s scary

POCD

angel 🪽

Date posted: 19w

18+ kinda tmi and nsfw

18+ pls!!! pls reply if u can (superrrrr tmi, pls don’t read if it’ll make you uncomfortable) since struggling with ocd, i have rules around the likes of m^sturbation and sexual stuff because i think too much into it now. one of the rules is that exact day i cant have seen or been around children because otherwise ill get intrusive thoughts that ive done it because of that (it isnt and never has been, before all of this i was able to engage in this stuff without any worry because it never crossed my mind). i cant have seen one the day before either or the day after actually engaging in that stuff because otherwise my mind plays tricks on me. i wanted to yk today because it makes me tired and most of the time helps me sleep but im worried i cant now because my mum and i watched a show and there was a quick clip of a child in it and my for you page on tiktok is things related to the genocide in gaza which obviously on some posts has pictures too that i’ve seen while interacting with the posts (like, commenting and reposting. thought i should state this bc i dont want it to sound like i meant anything else) so because now ive seen them i feel incredibly guilty and that if i am to yk, they’ll somehow link and be proof im this bad person. (Also should state i mean m^sturbate to ADULT content, when i’ve seen these posts i haven’t got aroused or anything. i’m just worried that bc ive seen stuff related to children today it’ll be bad of me to engage in that sort of thing to help me sleep)

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