ROCD

Does ROCD every start to make you feel and perceive life, or your spouse and the things important to you through this really wierd, unsettling kind of filter or perception? And you just feel resistant, distracted, repulsed and almost like you don’t care but also do. It’s hard. I feel very unfamiliar. It’s like you just don’t want to try when you think I about making action, but you also want to. Ugh. What do you do? Has things changed for you? I wish I could describe this better but I can’t.

Username: kiki♡kiki♡

Date posted: 2y ago

Totally know the feeling. Ocd kinda coats everything in this icky self doubting echo chamber. I try to remind myself I can do things tonnage it, and hopefully the strange feeling passes soon.

Username: kiki♡kiki♡

Date posted: 2y ago

Sorry, that sounds like I'm saying it's a positive you are struggling with internal stuff. I just meant that you need to be kind with yourself, and that the guilt will only make you feel worse. Your partner sounds like he cares about you, and that is a thing I'm sure you can feel is good underneath what ocd is telling you.

Username: SupertrampSupertramp

Date posted: 2y ago

I have this alot !! Honestly i personally remind myself it’s OCD, and train my attention with attention training exercises my therapist gave me, so everytime i fade away i manage to come back. I don’t look into the thoughts and all the fog in my brain, i know it isn’t true, i don’t try to understand it or reason with it, i sit with it, sit with it, sit with it, that’s the only way unfortunately it sucks but it works on the long term and sometimes i even tell my partner “ Hey babe, my OCD is playing tricks on me, i can’t seem to focus properly I’m sorry if i seem spaced out” and he understands perfectly and it goes away at some point and i can enjoy my night again 😊 i hope this helps !!

Username: kiki♡kiki♡

Date posted: 2y ago

To manage**

Username: obsessing&stressingobsessing&st...

Date posted: 2y ago

Things haven’t changed for me yet but I’ve been feeling this lately. It’s like everything is tinted in a bad horror movie filter or something and I can’t seem to wipe it away even though the only things wrong are internal.

Username: kiki♡kiki♡

Date posted: 2y ago

Yeah.. maybe it always sorta lingers there actually. But it can be muted by focusing on other things. I totally know the feeling you're describing and it can be really unsettling

Username: ChyChy

Date posted: 2y ago

And I feel bad because tonight we had a date night and he was expressing how he had such a god night and I fully didn’t feel the same way because I felt like I couldn’t focus, stay interested in him, of feel whole. And I didn’t fully feel the same way about the night. That caused me to feel guilty and wrong - especially that he has such a good night and honestly, he’s so sweet he deserves for me to fully enjoy him.

Username: kiki♡kiki♡

Date posted: 2y ago

Try to give yourself space to have these uncomfortable feelings and thoughts, but to just try to focus on the positives. You are with someone who enjoys being with you, and you are struggling with internal stuff. Try to be easier on yourself and hopefully that will let you get to a better space.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Depersonalization and rocd

I’m in a relapse of my rocd if we can call it that, it’s been months now and it’s so hard. I love my partner an amazing amount but everything I do tells me different. Rocd tells me I don’t love him, I don’t even like or care about him and it breaks my heart. All day long anytime I get excited or happy about something my rocd says that’s because you don’t love him anymore. It’s so hard as I have such a negative view of him with rocd and my mind won’t let me think of anything positive although I was so incredibly happy. He feels like a stranger to me I use to be so comfortable with him and he was my best friend and it just felt right. Even when I was experiencing rocd thoughts from my original episode I was able to work through and still be happy. This relapse is so hard. I’m not sure if I’m experiencing depersonalizations or not because when I read up what it is most people say they feel like they are in a dream. I don’t feel a dream as much as I don’t feel normal and don’t feel like me. I question everything I do from the time I get up till the time I go to bed. Before this relapse, would I have sat down and watched tv, would I have said or done this or that. Everything is a question and nothing feels normal. I don’t feel like me. Even being with my partner I wonder if I act/ think the same way. Would I normally say this in a text, would I normally sit beside him or was it okay if we didn’t cuddle every second we watched tv? When we slept before did I turn durning the night or did we cuddle the whole night? Did I give him a good morning kiss every morning? When I go to text him something my mind instantly checks to see if this was something I would have done before and then reminds me how everything feels so weird. Not just with him but with everything. Sometimes I look at my dog and I don’t even feel like she is the same. I’m just so worried I’m so focused on being normal again that I’ll never actually feel like me. Like I’ve been too far in this hole to get out.It just sucks and feels so wrong. I feel like others have days or moments when they get to feel somewhat normal around their partner but my rocd thoughts/ feelings just won’t let me. It’s been almost 4 months of waking up and not feeling the way I want to and feeling like a stranger. I’m in therapy, I’m doing other rocd work and it’s just sucks. I feel like I’m never going to be able to look or think about my partner and just be okay again. I don’t even care about feeling the in love feelings, I just want to feel like I’m fully committed to us and him again. He is my person and rocd is trying so hard to take him from me. I guess any tips for depersonalization that has lasted a long time?

Relationship OCD

Username: Milena Dourado

Date posted: 1y ago

ROCD

Hello guys. I really need help. I have been questioning for days about “not being in love anymore” or “not loving my partner anymore.” The intrusive thoughts make me feel that this is all real. Why does it feel so real? Sometimes there's an image of me treating him badly or the feeling that I'm angry with him. I started repeating to myself about love being a choice. But then there are new thoughts like "what if I don't want to choose him?" Has anyone please felt this? Did you manage to get away? Are there any exercises I can do? Please, help me! Please.

Relationship OCD

Username: lilbill

Date posted: 1y ago

ROCD

My rocd flared up around the time my girlfriend and i were starting the process of getting an apartment. At the start, I was very excited and so happy to be moving together. then my mind kept thinking “she’s not going to let you have any say in anything, she doesn’t want you decorating, you guys don’t like the same things” and i started to believe that, which eventually led to me saying all that. and from there on, it gradually got worse. I started having thoughts like “do i even love her? am i in love with her? having i been faking it this entire time? do i have feelings for anymore? etc” and then i would have thoughts of breaking up and i’d get so anxious. now i wake up every morning thinking “i don’t love her, i don’t want to be in a relationship with her” and i get sooooo anxious. i know i love her, i know i don’t want to break up with her, i know the apartment is something i genuinely want, i just can’t feel any of it right now. every time i think of breaking up, i try to imagine my life without her and it doesn’t seem right. i genuinely can’t imagine not being with her. my feelings and thoughts before all this were very much happy and healthy, like i was smitten but now my thoughts affect me everyday, they’re all i think about. it’s all i research, i talk about it too much to other people, the thoughts are making me feel like i’m faking everything. does anyone have tips. i just want to feel like i used to feel

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