Sometimes I feel as if I want to act on these thoughts and I will one day because I won’t be able to handle my thoughts and I’ll go insane and hurt myself. right now I feel a lot of pressure in my head and stress and anxiety along with some depression because I can’t seem to find the fun in things anymore also any type of semi stressful situation I go through on a day to day basis is 10x worse after getting this thought I’ve been dealing with this thought that I might not be able to handle my ocd thoughts and compulsions for years and years to come and one day I’ll snap and the last few days I’ve been feeling so down that I’m scared that I’ll act on them and I’ve had this thought for about two weeks now and before that I use to be fine i don’t know what happened I really just want to go back to how I was feeling two weeks ago I honestly don’t know why I got this thought and why it’s stuck in my head now and I can’t seem to shake it off I feel like walls are just crumbling in on me slowly and I can’t seem to get out of it I just keep wishing I went back to my normal self literally two 2-3 weeks ago I just don’t know what might have happened I know I was dealing with a great amount of stress before I got this thought so maybe it was building up to this one thought that I had two weeks ago. I usually am able to shake some of my ocd thoughts off and disregard them and continue about my day but this one thought got me into a hyperventilating state when I got it two weeks ago and it caused me to panic so much because it was such a bad thought that I can’t get rid of it now i feel as if I’m in a episode and Ill never get out of it and I’ll be stuck like this forever and I can’t feel like this because how should any human feel this type of way forever it’s impossible and then I might snap one day because I can’t take it anymore it just scares me I want to go back to my old self a few weeks ago

I put to much emphasis on it and torture myself with these thought rather than just accepting them and learning to live with them I’ve been seeing my specialists for about a week now and I’ve learned some new things but I keep up with the what ifs and the counter thoughts when people reassure me I’m okay because I keep thinking to myself they don’t know what’s going inside my head there not me they don’t feel what I feel and they just want to say that to say that and it scares me a similar thought like this happened to me two years ago and it crippled me even more then it did this time but I got over it after two months and I was fine for two years and now I’m back with the same thing and it sucks because I should of stuck with my meds and treatment but I figured I was fine and didn’t need it anymore and here we are again it just sucks I need to get out of this feeling

Is it more of a fear rather than a want? because I feel as if it will happen one day I keep asking people for reassurance that I won’t

Im going through the exact same thing right now, but we will get through it. A few days ago I woke up after severe stress episodes and I just felt out of touch with everything. Reality emotions and then I thought about harming myself and my anxiety sky rocketed. Im now in a state where I don’t know what to think, everytime i talk to people I just feel so out of touch and like it’s not really happening. I have a few good hours but the rest are bad and when I’m in these episodes I just want to sleep and cry. My anxiety initially started a few months ago but I’m happy to say I start therapy tommarow. I’m trying to keep up hope because i know I’m not completely gone, I still feel happy at times. When I go through these episodes I completely forget about the happiness and I feel this heavy stress on my head. My head feels like it’s going to explode and my body feels so weak. Today I managed to get up and eat which was hard for me and I sat under the sun. It was peaceful and gave me hope, please have hope. I know it’s hard but please don’t give up.

I'm also afraid il loose control its horrible I get u but I have suffered with this for many years and still haven't went insane I just have pure terror in my body 24.7 it's awful im sorry your going trough this 💔

I understand the feeling of wanting the thoughts to go away. I get thoughts about harming my family members and it’s extremely scary for me. I just want the thoughts to go away and feel happy. Some days my thoughts completely consume me and they take over and it’s terrifying. I use medication to cope but sometimes it feels like even that’s not enough. Glad to know someone else is going through a similar thing. It makes me feel not so alone.

this is literally EXACTLY what i’m going through right now and it really helped me knowing i’m not alone. it’s so scary and i just want to go back to my normal self too

I have been there. I get it. Go through ERP for this. Seriously, it changes things