basically i was reassurance seeking online and saw it may be possible i could “lose control” or “act out” and im really scared because my thoughts and urges have been more intense recently and i’m scared ive reached that point i really don’t want it to happen how do i tell my therapist this
Lose control & acting out doesn’t actually mean your going to do what your thoughts are saying. Or that not how I interpreted what you probably read too. I used to google so much & freak myself out. May just act out of control behavioral wise , or say things you don’t mean , or act out by being angry all the time. That’s how I took it.. it absolutely doesn’t just mean act upon those thoughts or lose control and do something you would never do.
it scared me because an actual ocd specialist wrote that and i don’t think it should be online they also put specific scenarios of how people can act out and now it’s going to stay in my head
@bilxie If you don’t mind , unless it will trigger you more. Mind giving an example of acting out they gave? Cause anyone can right anything online.
@BetterWays they literally said oh someone with pocd may eventually touch a child in appropriately if it hasn’t been treated quick enough
@BetterWays and i’m just thinking why would someone who apparently knows about ocd name specific scenarios that they know people with ocd will read and could potentially cause them to break down like i did
@bilxie Okay well I just read this and now I’m hella scared
Bilxie! It was just another OCD trigger. Believe me, I have been there. Do your ERP and you will learn that your thoughts don’t controle your actions! Love from Germany
i’m so scared becahse recently it feels like i want to watch inappropriate content of children to check myself and i feel terrible and have relapsed into self harm i know i don’t necessarily want to do this but i feel like i have to in order to prove i’m not a pedophile is this just another intrusive thought or compulsion? i’m scared to tell my therapist
@bilxie It’s just a compulsion…you are desperate to get an answer for your question, but you can’t. And thinking about inappropriate child stuff won’t answer this question for you as well. It’s just gonna drive you crazy. Tell this to your therapist. It is completely normal to seek for reassurance in this way. Your amygdala wants to do everything to get that relief… but it just tricks you into another circle of compulsions
@bilxie Read your post above carefully. It FEELS like you need to do this. That seems to me to be ocd trying to lead you into a compulsion. Looking at does not prove ANYTHING. That is ocd trick. If you do this and you will know for sure - that is a LIE that ocd is telling you. Your therapist can help you. Don’t be afraid. They have heard this before I can almost promise you.
@Prettymess man i really hate ocd i cant even tell what’s true anymore
@Jeffrey thank you so much i feel more calm i hate ocd it sucks
I am sorry to hear that you are having a difficult time. First, give yourself credit for recognizing what happened. That’s important. Second, extend yourself some compassion. Ocd is very difficult to navigate and the fact that we slip doesn’t mean we failed - all it means is we are human. And tell your therapist exactly how it happened. The therapist will likely not be surprised nor judgmental. Be gentle to yourself.
Exactly how you just said it.
what do you mean
@bilxie Say what you said in this post to your therapist!!
@BetterWays sorry i’m slow lol
@bilxie It’s okay! I should have said what I said the second time the first time lol.
So I’ve had some anxiety crop up related to POCD this week. Intrusive thoughts, etc. it’s happened once before but I wasn’t educated on OCD then or seeing my therapist so I’ve never talked about it. I’m terrified to tell my therapist because I’m terrified of being reported. I’ve never done anything harmful or even WANTED to do anything harmful. I am NOT a danger and I know it! I just want help dealing with the thoughts but am scared to share in therapy. Anyone else experience this?
I’m super aware of intrusive thoughts and they don’t go away and I don’t know how to make them go away or how to deal with them. And last night I had an urge and was almost going to act on one and that terrified me. I came home and the same thought arhat scared me was still in my mind and it scares me. I’m scared I’m going to lose control and become a bad person because I just don’t know what to do about the thoughts and how I’m capable of these things. I even contemplated about admitting myself to a mental hospital to get help because it’s getting bad and I don’t know how to control it. But I’m scared of doing that because what if I just end up staying in there for the rest of my life. What should I do I’m really scared and worried I may never get better and this is it for me.
I've been going through every single OCD almost I noticed, and harm OCD always bothers me I have urges but I don't act on them and they scare me. I'm just scared they are gonna assume I'm a bad person that I want to hurt someone. I don't but my thoughts keep arguing and it freaks me out.
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