Real ocd

Sometimes, when I have long periods of low trigger days, I feel like maybe I don't have OCD. Then I have a couple weeks like I'm having now, just to remind me that it's no fluke. I know life isn't fair. I'm just trying to figure out how it could have turned so wrong. There's no OCD on my family, other than myself. I have some cousins with bipolar, but that might have come from the other side of their family. No direct line above me. It really really sucks.

Username: EFF_OCDEFF_OCD

Date posted: 2y ago

Remember that ocd goes undiagnosed for most people too. You may indeed have it in your family. So many people suffer in silence because admitting intrusive thoughts is so embarrassing. I literally took 15 years to admit to a doctor/therapist what was wrong. Do you have any anxiety in your family? I don’t know a family anymore these days without at least some anxiety problems. I’m sure someone does! Any anxiety problem could be linked to OCD. You aren’t a failure!

Username: MaedayMaeday

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

Not anxiety, I don't think. I'm the only one with anxiety.

Username: AnneMarie AnneMarie

Date posted: 2y ago

This happens to me as well. I thought I was alone in feeling pretty good then WHAM! I too have had ocd for most of my 59 years and just a few weeks ago I told my therapist here about it and what my thoughts and feelings were. I haven't begun treatment yet. It scares me but I'm encouraged by you and so many people here. Thank you for posting. You never know who it might help. Be well.

Username: KAD.98KAD.98

Date posted: 2y ago

OMG THANK YOU FOR POSTING THIS. Because I have felt this EXACT way and I was worried in my head “Am I lying to myself?!” “Am I forcing myself to be uncomfortable because I supposidly have “OCD” “Do I really need this medication” “Am I crazy that’s why I’m lying, am I lying to my therapist, do I really have OCD?! Am I autistic, is there something else wrong is there something wrong with my head that I’m terminally ill” it’s NEVER freaking ending. I thought I didn’t have OCD these past 2 days because I have found my compulsions easy to kick when I just remember last week I cried over my boyfriend keeping me from flipping the light switches 4 times over a bad thought. I’m so confused!!!!!!!! 😫😫😫😫

Username: roses_are_rosé

Date posted: 5y ago

This is just too much...and it just sucks because no matter what I do... in reality ocd doesn’t care about what it’s doing to me... it’s gonna keep doing this. My brother is sick with something that causes diarrhea...he was sick with it 2 weeks ago, got better last week, and we all got the stomach flu this week which caused his sickness to come back...he’s playful and doing normal 1 year old things but ocd keeps saying he is going to die. I don’t completely understand how a 1 year old would just magically die from watery shit, but just because this worry makes no sense, it doesn’t mean I’m still not scared.And it showed me a scenario of his funeral and it’s so fucked up.I think the worst punishment God has ever given me was ocd... ocd hurts me more than anyone else can... it’s so fucked up... I used to ask God for help but I guess mental health wasn’t that saving worthy so I just stopped praying about my mental health BC I’d be “wasting my time, he doesn’t answer you.” I just have so mu ch in. My life that isn’t going right and I’m started to get low key sad and miserable about my life at this point. I need help lately but I’m really depending on some sort of relief... just thought control and to get rid of bad people in my life and to get some of my grades up and...to be happy

Username: Make the mos...

Date posted: 3y ago

I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better, if I’m ever going to feel good, if I’m ever going to be able to carry on with this 10 years down the road. It’s torture with no exit, for me recently. Every time I bring up my OCD around family, they get annoyed. I can’t go to friends because it has only been of temporary relief. I am literally tearing up as I write this. I’m afraid I’m so close to convincing myself of the horrible lies my OCD has been telling me. I just can’t, I don’t know if there’s anyone or thing that can make me feel better. It’s been like lifting gigantic boulder up a steep mountain the entire day—and I could be crushed by it if not careful. If there is a god, why must he put me through this? I have already been through some many enough hard times in life, this OCD has only magnified any insecurities, anxieties, feeling of loneliness, self hate, and negative emotions.

Username: lcc1999

Date posted: 1y ago

Obsessing over the cause of my OCD

Has anyone spent time thinking of what might have caused their OCD in general or their current episode to start. I thought about all the times I used to self harm by hitting myself in the face or previous accidental concussions and I sometimes beat myself up about it. I briefly thought about a brain tumour too. I just think "Why me?" "Why now?". This summer coming is suppose to be the best one I've ever had and OCD decided to rear its ugly head at the worst possible time. I wish it came up when I had nothing to look forward to and no hope because at least then I wouldn't fear it ruining everything. Now when I started to build my life back up I have to deal with this. I just hope being with the love of my life and travelling with her will take my mind off all the memories and thoughts.

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