Is sleep anxiety a form of OCD

I used to do something similar. My fear was "I won't get anything done today" and the worry had me ruminating whether it's OCD, my fault, how to fix it, research, distraction to get away from the worry, and guess what... I didn't get anything done. I also wondered how come my fear did come true. I would tell myself "you just have to do something" and that would make the anxiety worse. I know some of the main compulsions were rumination and avoidance.

Well. You are not alone on this one. This is a beastly of a fear (not being able to sleep). I think this was my first anxiety attack with ruminatiion way back. I have had other thoughts over the years. Harm, false memories, driving, etc. But this fear is my sauron, my Vader, my deepest fear. Will I die from this Will I go crazy Will I be able to nap the next day Will I end up on the hospital and miss work Will I loose my job Will I be able to function again It has over the years limited my ability to take chances and grow. I would “respond” to this fear by not going on trips (fear I would not sleep and go crazy on trip). I would “respond” by making sure I’m in bed by a certain time just to make sure I had plenty of time to fall asleep before the morning. I “respond” to this fear of saying to my self “you can take tomorrow off from work and call in sick”. I believe there is response prevention that can be put in play. For me it would be to go to bed only when you are ready. Next would be to get up and go to work no matter how much sleep you got. Taking trips would be a huge exposure at least for me. The holy grail may be to stay up as late as possible without reassuring myself.

Further. I have gone down on my Zoloft over that past few months. I think too low. Especially when I have not done the hard work of ERP. Last couple of weeks brought me back to this platform. Looking for community reassurinence that I am not alone. Long summer days without little night (I in the pac northwest) got me on a anxiety gravatron with cortisol ripping through my blood line fire. Couple night with little or no sleep brought me to the shakes the other day and was seriously thinking I should check myself in. Luckily I have a good wife who called my doctor who prescribed hydroxozine again and I got it right away. This has helped bring down my stress and have slept well the last couple of nights even though I am still on fire with this thought. And I am going back up on my Zoloft.

And since today is the 4th. There will be fireworks well within my safe hours of trying to go to sleep. I think I will expose myself by walking down to see the fireworks at 10:30 tonight.