I am new to OCD. Please help!

hello! recently i have discovered that i might have ocd, specifically HOCD/SOOCD. however i need opinions and people’s input .. etc. english is my first language but i still have trouble finding better words/wordings so please don’t mind the parts where they don’t make sense.. so during may (2022), i flew from hawaii to cali to see my family and friends. everything was going really well. before this, it was a few weeks before school was over for the year and i was feeling this empty feeling for my boyfriend. i love him very very much and i wouldn’t trade him for anything in the world. we were talking since december and made it official in march. the feeling was there just for a bit, i shrugged it off as nothing because i knew that i love him. back to the cali part, i was away from him so there was distance between us. i started to feel absolutely nothing and just pure anxiety and panic because when i thought of him, i felt nothing.. i thought that was a sign that i did not love him anymore. i’ve spoken to my friends and close family about my feelings towards my boyfriend and they’ve all told me about the honeymoon phase. which i never knew about because i grew up where you had to feel some kind of giggly, flustered, butterflies feeling ALL THE TIME with your s/o and/or crush. i started to feel more aroused towards women, they could be doing anything and i would have lots of groinal responses. i’m bisexual, i’ve heard that it’s pretty common to be slightly confused with being bi due to people belittling the sexuality (ex. telling bisexuals that they’re confused, should only choose one or the other, etc.). i’ve been identifying as bi since 6-7th grade (i’m becoming a junior in a month from now) so these groinal responses towards women to me were either because of my attraction to women or that i’m a lesbian because at the time when i was at cali and having panic attacks, i didn’t feel any sort of responses towards men. i constantly read the lesbian master doc to see if i relate to any of the written things and tbh i don’t really relate to any of the stuff at all. however my brain keeps making me rethink and second guess and basically convincing me that i do relate to all the said things in the document. this has made me feel very very anxious and depressed. i’ve gone thru this before but i just never knew that it was a sign of ocd.. i’ve told my boyfriend and my mom about how i’ve been feeling and they’re both supporting me. my boyfriend has been checking up on me and so has my mom + other friends that i’ve told. this has made my summer vacation a living hell. i was looking forward to this ever since the beginning of the year and now it’s just hot, sweaty, depression, and anxiety. as i’m writing this, i must’ve left a lot of things out. but replies would really be nice to help me figure some things out because i still don’t even know if it’s denial or ocd..