Just venting

Today I just feel like I'm at my worst trying to beat the compulsions. It just really hurts, after I have made progress I still get this episodes where I start believing all the intrusive thoughts. It feels like I am carrying a mountain of nothingness, just problem solving without a problem, rumination all the time. I'm trying my best to stop the compulsion, but today I relapsed. I'll come back to do ERP when I'm feeling better. On top of all that I'm really fighting my porn addiction, it's a lot of weight, but I'm doing good so far.

Username: lovelybook04lovelybook04

Date posted: 2y ago

Hey, relapsing doesn’t make you any less of a person and it’s just part of our journey. I understand how you’re feeling… You are not alone. Just remember, you are doing so good! You are so brave and courageous for all the work you have done. Relapsing doesn’t mean you go backwards, it just means you can improve and learn from your feelings and experiences when understanding the best version of yourself💜💜

Username: Kebap18Kebap18

Date posted: 2y ago

Thanks!!

Username: Love 777Love 777

Date posted: 2y ago

Wright down everything negative about the drug and alchohol and tead it everytime u feel tempted again and you wont use it . I mean really wroght down how many bad times its put you through . I have harm ocd and i was a hard core addict . Barley realizing that i did all this to myself . Drugs ruin the brain . People like me and you need to stay clean . Because with our condition we can go crazy .

Username: Love 777Love 777

Date posted: 2y ago

Read*

Username: Rozzie

Date posted: 2y ago

ERP is just... Not working

It's too much for me right now, and I'm really struggling. Like really bad. Right now, um going to just focus on letting thoughts go, like... IDK MINI ERP? I'm going to try not to analyze them. It's too much for me, trying to figure out what's a compulsion, what's ocd, what's not... I've gotten worse, I is thinking. I don't know if I'm doing it wrong or something, and I have a therapist on NOCD and stuff, but it's just not working. Not now, at least

Username: Brigitta

Date posted: 1y ago

Really struggling today

Hi All, the intrusive thoughts have been really sticking today and I feel so tired of this constant battle. I've been doing ERP for a month but haven't noticed decrease in anxiety level yet. I'm afraid that I will give up the fight and end up committing suicide. I wish I could get a break and feel some relief.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Struggling today

The thoughts feel so real. I feel like I'm denying everything just to hold onto what I'm comfortable with. The depression is crazy too; it feels like none of my ERP work matters because I'm just in denial.

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