- Date posted
- 3y
OCD religion
I was raised religious and It giveds me safety and comfort when I was younger because when I prayed I told to someone me though and worries so that comfort. Later I didn't believe In It anymore but rn because of the OCD episode again I rethink everything because when I prayed I asked things but didn't got It and there was like also a person that had that and god told them like just because I font give you what you want doesn't mean I don't love you around those lines. And I was like Oh I didn't got that when I was younger what I asked for but I got comfort and safety because I needed that and he knows best what people needs. And I got that water on me head when I was you so maybe also that's has something to do with It that I am contected to It. But Idk what to think or I should go back to that because I want that comfort and safety back but rn I don't believe In It but this makes me rethink everything because It probably won't work because you have to believe In you hart I'm It and when I was a kid I did because I didn't doubt It or something so rn I am panicking because It makes sense and what If he exit's for some people and sometimes I think I hear him or like a feeling that he Is there but also could be all OCD. AND CAN ANYBODY HELP ME WITH THIS like should I go back praying every night and saying all that just to get that back but even I don't believe In It anymore like wtf But I always said that I had religion trauma but was Iinying to me self because rn I think different about it and I would be a better person and I should ask god what to do rn or what he wants Idk