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i get where youre coming from! i know how frustrated you are but i also know how bad reassurance is for you in the long run. either way, i’ll give you this; being TRULY suicidal (and not just being unlucky and having suicidal thoughts in the context of ocd) is an active choice. its like looking in the fridge when youre about to make lunch. you’ll weigh your options and then pick what you want. no anxiety there. suicidal people arent scared of their suicidal thoughts, because they want to. you have suicidal thoughts, but they dont mean youre suicidal. it means you have suicidal thoughts and nothing more. but you clearly dont want to even have the impression of the thoughts there, and even far from do you want to actually plan suicide and go througj with it.
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My dear friend, I am so sorry you’re dealing with this. Your fear of these thoughts tells me that you are not actually suicidal. I believe this is all OCD. I know the thoughts are hard, but they say nothing about who you are. You’re going to get through this❤️❤️
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Thank you so much girls, it’s just so extremely hard when you can’t tell if you are suicidal and if you’re not and if it’s just OCD, it seems so real when I tell myself, no I don’t care I’m just going to end it all, I know I want to live but when I have those thoughts of going thru with it, it makes me second guess everything. I hope this is just a bump in the road and not something that I am actually having to deal with I hate this so much I’m so tired ;(
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@holytropical! Did you find any tips for this?
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Hey guys, I know this is an old thread but this is a huge theme of my OCD and I was wondering if anyone wants to correspond via email about how you deal with it. Could really use some support in 2020.
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I have this theme too
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Hey I have this kind of OCD!!! We can talk together about this if you’d like! I’m having a very hard time myself
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I completely empathize with you. I am kind of in the same boat, I have times where I really struggle to believe it’s OCD and I feel like i’m actually dealing with suicidal ideation. But what I try to do, it’s just to repeat to myself “maybe it’ll happen, and maybe it won’t, guess i’ll have to find out” and then i try to move on with my day as much as I can. OCD for me can be a minute by minute disorder, where on my bad days, I might have to remind myself every few minutes “yep, might happen” and just move on
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I’ve had this exact same thing (literally laughed reading your post because it describes everything I’ve gone through to a T) for about 7 months now! It gets better, I promise. I know it sucks right now. I still have bad days but I’m better at understanding them in the context of OCD. Getting diagnosed helped because I realized that obviously they weren’t real thoughts - it was just the OCD! I try to remind myself that every time I get an intrusive thought. I felt so alone before finding out that suicidal OCD is a thing, so communities like this are so helpful. Hope this helps you a bit.
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How did you recover?
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I’m so glad I came across this. It described how I feel exactly.
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i’m dealing with this rn i’m so scared
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Hi… to the original admin who posted. How are you feeling???
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@Anonymous Interested as well
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Yeah I would like to talk!
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Hopefully we can share tips on how to deal with this!
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For sure!! I’m going to email you right away okay?? I may be a bit busy through the day but I promise I will reply
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I suffer the exact same thing.. you aren’t alone People just call the cops on me if I’m feeling like this
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The fact that you're worried about potentially feeling suicidal means you definitely won't do it even if you end up feeling suicidal. We all feel suicidal sometimes with ocd, most of us anyway. So you're bound to feel it once or twice. This ocd suicide thing you'll feel every day. But when you actually feel suicidal you'll know because you won't care about even making a post. People live their whole lives with suicidal thoughts to the point where they feel like doing it but you have people that you'll think about that will make you think before you act, even if it's just us! So don't worry, plus I know people that have attempted suicide many times and survived from it. Even jumping off of high buildings etc. So even if you did try, you'd probably survive. I feel actual suicidal a lot and when I feel suicidal, I don't care about anything and I have made plans in the past. But people that go through with it usually don't have a support network like an app like these, if they had of, they probably would have got the thoughts, and then realised they have people to talk to like I do when I think about killing myself. I've made plans in the past on Prozac it really didn't suit me, and I never went through with it because of my family. I went to the drs as soon as I could to come off of Prozac. You body will go into fight or flight and you'll either fight these anxiety thoughts, and remember that these suicidal thoughts are ocd anxiety thoughts, so you'll either say fuck you to the thoughts and try and get on with your life, or you'll run away from the thoughts and feel anxious and panicky regarding them. But you won't act on the thoughts, people don't go up to lions when they're afraid of them. Just call somebody when you don't care about anything, don't even care about commenting on here, don't even care about your family, listen to me now, call somebody. And now I'm sure that hearing me tell you to call somebody if you ever do have suicidal thoughts, will stop you worrying about getting real ones. Xx
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Any updates on this?? Going through this now and it SUCKS
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Can I get your contact information? I deal with the same themes
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Know this is so old but could really use some positive encouragement:).
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All of this started in October for me. Just out of the blue. But lately I’ve been having a hard time with the feelings. Like the thought doesn’t scare me, but I’ve turned that into this new obsession thinking I’m suicidal now, I’ll never get better, I’ll suffer forever and I’ll get so over it one day ending it all will be my only option. When you say push through them, can you explain that a little more?
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Hey guys! Im dealing with this theme right now. Any specific advice? Have y’all connected to share support?
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What’s your email !!?
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Ok thank u sooo much <3
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No probs!!
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I deal with the same theme as well
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Can I have your contact info??
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Going on a plane tomorrow and I’m scared
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Yes here’s my email : jae_ montemayor03@yahoo.com
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I will email you tomorrow. Youre not alone I can promise you that
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I could have written this post myself. It does get better. Really. I’m having a bit of a lapse at the moment but I have to trust it is just ocd. We can support each other x
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I’m looking for some people to talk to. Is anyone still on here that deals with this theme
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Me! Hi Whitney. I’d be happy to talk with you on this theme :)
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@Maban Great! Email?
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@Whitney Can we talk here? I don’t feel super comfortable giving out my personal email!
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@Maban Sure thing. That makes sense. How long have you dealt with this theme? Are you still dealing with it?
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Ive been dealing with it for a little under a year, but wasn’t diagnosed with OCD until February! It’s gotten a LOT better, it’s really not too bothersome now, but I definitely have my days. what about you???
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I’ve been struggling hard lately. Can you tell me what all you’ve done to make it better?
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as hard as it sounds, you have to just push into the thoughts
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the less scary they become to you, the more you’ll learn they aren’t serious threats
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I know this is an old thread - is anyone in the same theme / boat as OP?
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Hi - I still deal with this theme, what’s up? 🙂
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn I definitely struggle with this! A lot. And Harm OCD as well. Any tips?
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@ahxllz Definitely treat it the same as any other OCD subtype! So ERP, avoiding compulsions throughout the day, practicing mindfulness helps a lot, as well as finding/connecting with a support group. Those have helped me tremendously! While I do deal with this theme, it’s far from the level it was at before I did these things!
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn Hi Evelyn, I see that you are an NOCD advocate and I’d love to talk. Are you still active on here?
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@Anxiousmindsthinkalike Hey! Yes I’m around, what’s up? :-)
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn I’ve been dealing with what the admin of this chat mentioned. I wrote my own post earlier about how I feel. I have been sick from these thoughts all day. They feel so real and it feels like I’m actually depressed/ have no desire to live. I don’t plan to hurt myself, it almost just feels like I don’t know what I want anymore, like I have no desire for anything and I just want this all to end. I just don’t know what to do or how to deal with this. Any advice would help.
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn Do you have any personal ways to reach you? I just need someone to talk to.
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@Anxiousmindsthinkalike Yeah of course! you can do email me at ocdhelpevelyn@gmail.com
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@NOCD Advocate - Evelyn I send you an email. Thank you!
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I’m dealing with this theme all over again ): any advice?
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@Anonymous same!! how are u feeling? I get scared whenever i saw the "suicide" word
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@sendgyoza I had a full spiral yesterday where I think I actually felt depressed because of my OCD, so it freaked me out even more. And then I was physically so anxious and distraught ):
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so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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Hi ❤️ I’m really struggling right now I’m in my sophomore year of Highschool and I’ve finally started planning or thinking abt my future (for context I was extremely depressed and suicidal from 6-9th grade) After conquering my depression this is a huge leap for me and I’m proud of myself ❤️ But there’s something still holding me down :( and I’m not sure what to do anymore that thing is OCD. Since 6th grade I have had strong and invasive intrusive thoughts all the time they scare me so bad and make me feel as though I’m not even real anymore :( I’m sick of taking the time to do ridiculous compulsions to rid or ease these thoughts it’s a waste of time and energy and it hurts me so bad I feel like I will never get to just live my life without this :( How can I plan my future when I can’t even find myself in this mess of anxiety 💔 I’m so tired of fighting my mental health it’s been years from anxiety attacks to sh to survived suicide attempts (I got help dw❤️🩹) and recovery there. Just to be thrown into a storm of awful scary sickening thoughts day and night-when can I just be a normal teenager and possibly a happy adult? How do I conquer this so I can love myself to the fullest and live my life free and happy? :( ❤️❤️🩹 I’m so scared to talk to my parents about it I’m ashamed of my thoughts and every time I bring it up they just say I shouldn’t be diagnosing myself or it’s just ADHD. It really really hurts me they have no idea how awful this feels and it makes me feel so alone sometimes 💔
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