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I’m in the same spot right now except not feeling like a guy anymore. It’s hard, and it will make you doubt everything, but the key is to accept the uncertainty. I’m still in the middle of learning how to now and it’s been very hard, these thoughts have and still are kicking my butt, but we’ll get through this. I believe in you :)
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Im trying to! But I get so scared or that in the future or something I’ll decide I am like a guy or something and that I do like girls like im just so unsure of myself and how I feel that I just don’t know or I can’t see my future I guess anymore or something or that Im just scared of it. I hope you’re doing better though! Sorry for the late reply!!
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@khm No need to apologize! I can relate to a lot of what you’re saying, and I know how convincing and terrifying it can feel. The most difficult part of this all is accepting the uncertainty and letting the intrusive thoughts pass without doing compulsions/ruminating. It feels impossible, but with practice and help it is possible to beat. This won’t be your forever, you will get through this one day :)
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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