- Date posted
- 179d ago
- Order & Symmetry OCD
- Perfectionism OCD
I did a thing, and now I’m sitting with it!
I knitted my first sock as a pattern test for an old friend. 🧶🧦 I had to embrace unknown in how the yarn would change colors and even in trusting that it would fit even when it seemed so small at the start. I had to embrace a lot of imperfection to keep moving forward. And even now, when I look at it I still have to fight those urges to do it over, better. There were sections I had to redo because I’m new to it and made mistakes, but many times I put it to bed before deciding if it really needed to be redone—and most of the time it didn’t! I also had to embrace that parts of it purposely broke pattern and felt OCD weird. Bonus: needle arts help me pick a little less and balance me some. Sure, I’m breaking out so much, I’m still picking more than I’d like, but less than I could/would be. And there were times I felt stuck not putting the needles down when I should have. But I recognized that and fought it to keep this a net positive activity. I’m really proud of what I did and what I created. And though I probably won’t share it anywhere but here, I’m also really proud of how I used this to help me fight my OCD. I did this as a total beginner and used it to help my mind. If you’re thinking of trying something, go for it! There may be frustrating parts, but just give it a try. Strength and comfort to us all! 💪🏼💜