Aisha372828
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- 2y
Can i talk to someone please
i keep getting weird thoughts and like if i think about something i start to think about it more and make my self believe i am this how do i stop this? ugh
confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
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- 2y
I can talk. I completely understand that, it gets like that for me too and it feels like I’m either gonna do it or end up hospitalized. Often times I just find myself thinking out the actions vividly, all the blood and gross stuff. If that doesn’t work (which it won’t always work) I try distracting myself or thinking about the fact that I can think of many things vividly but that doesn’t mean I want to do it. I can imagine myself going outside naked, doesn’t mean I want to nor am I going to do it. Focusing on these thoughts is only going to make them worse. Obviously you’re going to focus on them. They’re scary. But always just try to change the narrative a bit. Think of yourself in a cartoon too, that helps! Or imagine talking to your favorite celebrity or fictional character. If you have any questions ask me :)
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused but yeah my brain is never quiet i’m scared i don’t even know what i actually even have
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
girl u there /:
confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
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- 2y
@Aisha372828 SORRY MY PHONE ALMOST DIED I HAD TO CHARGE IT
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused it’s alright
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
and like even earlier on i called my Gp regarding ms asking them to fill out a form to get extra support regarding my mental health however they were just rude and said they need to charge me to get the letter when i wasn’t told about it. like why do i have to pay to prove i have mental health when it’s already in the system to get support for my college like? that also didn’t help because i’m like wow no one is supportive i’m all alone
confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
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- 2y
ugh I hate schools and how little they care about mental health
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
it’s really horrible like the other day i started getting weird thoughts about what if i’m a transgender and i couldn’t stop obsessing over it and it’s scaring me cause i wouldn’t want that so i don’t understand why i have it and then after i start thinking about me blinking a lot and then i have to do it since my brain is too focused and i keep having thoughts of not being normal and my head won’t shut up up and i want to like those normal people who have no thoughts ugh this sucks
confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
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- 2y
Yeah I completely understand the gender questioning and the “brain won’t shut up” my best advice is to focus on other things. Leave the questioning for some other time. If you don’t want it, then you aren’t (as spoken from a trans person) and I find that going to the store, building Lego’s, doing puzzles, painting, watching YouTubers, baking, going for a walk, talking to friends, sewing, and reading help me get out of my head when my brain starts hyperfocusing on ocd and bad thoughts. Sorry that I’m not much help I’m not the best at explaining things
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused yeah your right but that’s what scares me i don’t understand why i’m having these trans thoughts if i’m not it’s annoying and my brain makes it feel real and i don’t want it clearly
confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
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- 2y
@Aisha372828 I have thoughts that I’m cis and it feels so real and I’m scared that I am. I understand. Why would I have thoughts telling me I’m cis and I would be happier cis if that’s not true? It’s just how ocd works. Trust me I KNOW that sounds so stupid because it’s all you can focus on and it doesn’t even sound believable, but it’s true. Sometimes I’ll picture my future life in that gender and sometimes I’ll feel liek “oh yes that would be nice” and other times I would rather stick my hand on a hot pan. Ocd is all about tricks. The more you freak out about it the more power you give it. Just be like “yea okay.” Plus if you don’t want to be trans then don’t. Simple as that
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused i’m sorry to hear your going through that and i don’t but my brain convinced me and says if you are you gotta start becoming it or what if i start becoming it? it’s annoying
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused what’s a cis?
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused sorry i don’t know what that is
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused yeah like you said don’t be it my brain is like yes you want it so become it but i don’t
Aisha372828Aisha372828
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- 2y
@confusedbutamused and girl you know what’s more annoying my ex was a girl but i was on so many pills so i don’t know whether i liked liked them but like that questioned my sexuality as i have liked guys as wel and i saw some pretty girl then i started getting weird thoughts about liking girls and that scared me also then it triggered me in to having trans thoughts like what if i am which scared me
confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
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- 2y
@Aisha372828 it’s someone who identifies with their birth gender!
confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...
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- 2y
@Aisha372828 god that really sucks questioning sucks in general but when ocd is thrown in it makes it 1000 times worse. go buy a cake or something you deserve it honestly. You’re amazing for putting up with you’re ocd
Catlove9Catlove9
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- 2y
I am going through someone similar
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