karafaithyyyy

Date posted: 3y

fear of hallucinating & going crazy

soooo i have ocd. and i’ve been through HOCD and health anxiety. i have a new theme, the “what if i’m going crazy”. this one has hit pretty hard. i’ve gotten over the intrusive thoughts that were like “what if you’re crazy” and all of that. but NOW i have a fear about hallucinations, and my brain will literally make up the most weird ideas and imaginations. and i’ll look at anything, like a candle, and the intrusive thought will be “what if that candle grew legs, why did you think that, you must be insane”. and i have no idea if anyone will get that at all.

jacivy

Date posted: 3y

Totally feel you. It’s so hard when OCD starts intruding on everything you see and everything around you. I have that with harm ocd. Like what if you used that plastic bag to suffocate someone. It’s so hard. I’m so sorry. We can get through this. We can do hard things.

Kids4Christ

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

Yes! You’re not alone. I just try to remember what i see is what I see and what I imagine is just an imagination nothing more nothing less!

karafaithyyyy

Date posted: 3y

i’m really glad someone understands this. i seriouslyyyy felt like maybe this wasn’t OCD after all, ya know😅

Kids4Christ

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

@karafaithyyyy Yeah we all got imaginations lol. It sucks bc it’s what we fear at the time but you’re not alone in it! Just remember that❤️

vgb

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

@karafaithyyyy It’s all ocd!!!

labdogmom

Date posted: 3y

If it makes you feel any better … before I got diagnosed with OCD I was terrified that I was experiencing psychosis because the intrusive thoughts were so intense it almost felt like an auditory hallucination. I went to the hospital because I got scared that the anxiety from this was going to give me an actual heart attack and the MH evaluator told me that if it was a REAL hallucination I would be hearing things as if someone was in the room with me and I’d be seeing physical things in front of me. This kind of helped me with ERP in a weird way because I kept telling myself, its just a thought & thoughts are just my brain spewing things constantly without me even trying

karafaithyyyy

Date posted: 3y

i don’t see anything i just imagine it and the anxiety takes that above and beyond. thank you for this

vgb

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

@karafaithyyyy Ocd is such an equal opportunity tyrant!!!! I swear the same things used to happen to me until I got tired of it and moved in to a new greasy obsession…. It’s just always waiting around the corner but you know what…. Fuck it!!!!! (Pardon my French !). We are all good!!!! Hang in there! It’s the little butt head trying to be heard!!! I guess it’s there to stay cuz it’s in our genes but we can still be in control and tell our ocd that we know how it works! Hand tough my friend

karafaithyyyy

Date posted: 3y

@vgb the same things happened to you?? literally i thought it was just me this whole entire time

vgb

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

@karafaithyyyy I’ve been through it all…. Just about. I am 60 and have had to cope w OCD all my life. But I didn’t know what it was until my 30s so I’m assuming you are better off just knowing g it’s a real thing and u are not a freak nor are u alone. It’s all the same in the end.. I think we are over sensitive people who care a lot and are easily manipulated by scary tgoughtsBUT. IN TGE END dont forget how wonderful and caring you are! Thoughts are NOT actions and YOU know your truest heart!!!!!

Anonymous

Date posted: 27d

Same how you deal with it?

vgb

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 27d

@Anonymous Day by day. Just deep breaths… acceptance sometimes struggle sometimes happiness

Cleoleon23

Date posted: 24w

Physcosis ocd??

Recently ive had ocd thoughts that are really weird and make no sense (they sound like thoughts that someone would have if they were in physcosis eg. What if trump can communicate with you through your head) like what??? Sometimes it feels like i believe it??? Which stresses me out and im constantly worried that im going through physcosis since i sort of belive it? I know deep down its ridiculous but it almost feels like i believe it?? Im scared. Like sometimes im calm with the thought. Im like oh okay maybe. Then sometimes my brain tries to imagine him like talking to me through my head??? Am i going through physcosis.??

Anonymous

Date posted: 23w

Ocd/going crazy

Hi about a week ago I found out I have ocd and chronic anxiety! I tried zoloft and it was terrible for me. I also started therapy and I take hydroxyzine but I will discuss further medication with my doctor. My question is I have a huge fear that I'm going crazy, I am crazy, or schizophrenic to the point I'm so hyper aware of my surrounding ill look out the corner of my eye to make sure I'm nit seeing anything ill make sure to double check what I'm hearing and it's so draining! I get really scared and go into a panic and cry 😅 I need some reassurance has anyone felt this way my doctor and therapist explained it to me but I'm still very scared. I feel like one day I'll have a break and I won't be the same! I tried the grounding exercise and breathing it helps temporarily. I also cut out smoking weed and none of my family has this but I feel like I have it or ill develope it even though it's rare!

୨ৎ

Date posted: 19w

can ocd make you question your mental health?

i have been diagnosed with OCD & generalized anxiety disorder. for some reason, i’ve been very hyper aware of everything. like the way i talk, the way i see the world, how certain things sound/look/feel, and it’s very distressing. i feel like the hyper awareness makes me afraid of things? like for some reason, my mind attached to cartoons, and i was hyperfocusing on it, and got extremely scared, like scared of the cartoon for no reason? i’ve done this a lot, and i get scared i have psychosis or schizophrenia, or something that makes you afraid of things for no unknown reason. i feel so scared that this is my new normal…. im heartbroken. so many what if’s. did i just ruin my own life?? 💔

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