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Thank you:) I’m bandaged up everywhere and still don’t feel like my skin is “even.” I put some gloves on to help me stop. It’s just all so illogical - just because skin is loose, textured, dry, or a different color, doesn’t mean it is uneven. And picking at it causes pain and I hate pain. Walking is going to be tough for the next several days bc I picked one of my big toe nails off (my Dad accidentally stepped on it when I was little and it will forever grow in a “shattered/bumpy” pattern. But when I picked it off, the skin underneath didn’t come off evenly so I ended up picking down to and in some places beneath the dermis. It really hurts and I’m prob going to look ridiculous bc the only shoes I have big enough to fit the bandages are rain boots. I also have bandages all over my hands and spots on my face:( If you read to the end of this - bless you:) I really needed to vent some of this pain and shame and isolation that ocd and dermotillomania brings everyday. Sometimes it gets to be too much?
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It's true dealing with mental health issues can make us feel like we are the only ones. You are so brave for opening up here and sharing your story! Ocd can have such a strong grip on us that we go through so much to prevent or overcome the extreme panic and discomfort it causes. I think talking about it pulls the power away from ocd. We all need the support from each other to get better! For fast healing colloidal silver is amazing. It fights infection and inflammation. It comes in spray and drops. As your skin heals think of your skin as a beautiful canvas no matter what. We all have scars, divets, dry skin etc. that make us unique. Ocd is telling you it has to be another way to feel right. We are all beautiful lumps and all haha! I think you're awesome for being so kind and helping others on here! Know you are never alone and even if ocd knocks us down we can get right back up and keep striving to shrink ocd right on down! Thank you for sharing you've inspired me to keep fighting too!
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here for you <3
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A few people posted about this also today I saw. You are not alone either way. We can all understand your pain. You are not weak or anything else that shame is telling you right now. You are resilient and a fighter. Sending support your way!
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you WILL get through this <3
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i relate but were both gunna be ok, i pick my toenails off and stuff too i feel so ashamed >_< but its not my or your fault!!
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Thank you ??? I’ll look into the colloidal silver:) Feeling more optimistic after reading your messages - WE SHALL. We’ll NOT let OCD win?
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I'm happy you're feeling better!!
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