Tocd not remembering past -> now remembering

I’m struggling with Tocd and before this had happened I used to have a hard time remembering anything from when I was younger but now all of a sudden I’m remembering so much of my childhood and it almost feels like I’m reliving it (in my head at least like I can remember every detail of what it looked like) but at the same time I’m remembering these memories but the feelings attached to them or like how I felt aren’t how I remember these past memories idk how to explain like the feelings and emotions I’m having now struggling with Tocd are invading themselves into my memory and making me feel as though I’ve always felt this way I just didn’t know it and so I’m really confused and I guess just don’t know how to feel