Username: Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

Postpartum Depression/ OCD Possibly Psychosis

So recently I had a baby, about 5 days ago had a membrane sweep doctor did ask if I wanted one but I had no knowledge on it and what it could do to my baby also had no idea it was a form of induction for baby. I had cancelled my original induction so I don’t know why she would ask me if I wanted one. It did work I believe and am now regretting having it done I am a big person of faith and God and feel like I set my own baby’s birthdate. I feel like I intervened in baby’s timing. I’m horrible I don’t know if it’s my OCD tricking me because I feel like it’s worse that her birthdate landed on August 4th and my dad who passed away 3 years ago Birthday whos was February 4th. I’m not sure if I’m entering a psychosis I’m very scared. My baby needs me.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Hello. Doing a membrane sweep sends hormones to your body to start labor. However this will only work if your body is ready to go into labor. The fact that it worked says that you weren’t that far away from labor after all. Think of it like an extra push. You did not plan the date your daughter was going to be born on. It was fate. This is the way it was supposed to happen! Every time you think of you’re daughters birthday you get a lovely reminder of your father as well. How do you feel emotionally. Having a new baby can be extremely exhausting and over whelming.

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous Thank you I’m trying to think positive of the situation and not let OCD trick me into something it’s not. I’m really trying but feel like it may be getting worse I just get super anxious thinking about it. I’m sure it’s from me having magical thinking OCD as well that’s messing with my mind. I’m trying to remind myself that she’s a gift from God.

Username: PeachMRPeachMR

Date posted: 2y ago

I had my daughter last year in august, and my ocd symptoms went absolutely wild afterwards. I actually didn’t know I had ocd until that point because I felt I had no choice but to finally seek professional help. Anyway, the reason I say that is to hopefully show that postpartum is an unpredictable and emotionally turbulent time for all mothers, especially those with mental illness. Give yourself some forgiveness and know you did what you knew to be right in each moment. All we can do for our children is what we know to be best. You’ll get through this tough first part, and you’ll even back out. For me, it took medication and professional help, but I’ve improved more than I thought was possible. Give yourself some grace and patience, and know that you’re not the only mama out here trying her best. ❤️❤️❤️

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

@SierraMR Thank you so much for your kind words.❤️ Definitely trying my best and not let my thoughts get to me

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

@SierraMR I’m just very scared I can end up believing these thoughts and going into a psychosis🥺

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

I feel like my ocd is where I think numbers signify something like before I had her I was thinking oh what if I had her on the 4th it’s like my dads birthday on February 4th and I even thought oh what if I had her on the 5th that’s the day we got the news my dad was passing away. Then the day after August 3rd my doctor mentioned a membrane sweep and I didn’t really know what it was and I’m sure I agreed to it because I was under stress my daughter was starting school in a week I was hitting 39 weeks and only 2cm dialated. But now I go back and think did I say yes so she can be born on a date that signifies something. Idk if it’s my ocd or I’m going crazy I’m so so scared.

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

My husband says it’s a coincidence she was born on August 4th, but I can’t stop thinking if it is. I didn’t set a induction date my doctor just said it could start my labor naturally or maybe not. So I had no idea how soon it would.

Username: Anonymous24Anonymous24

Date posted: 2y ago

Postpartum psychosis is a very real and scary thing so please seek some help from a hospital or a psychiatrist that can help you. Please hang in there. I believe in you 💙

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous24 How can I tell I’m going into a psychosis vs it being ocd postpartum

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous24 🥺

Username: Anonymous12Anonymous12

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous24 Not many of my family members know about my ocd and don’t want to be admitted unless absolutely having too. Should I speak to my psychiatrist first?

Username: Anonymous24Anonymous24

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous12 Yess I think you should speak to ur psychiatrist first about it and your symptoms so she can see how severe or mild it is and if it is going into psychosis or if it is just still ocd

Username: Anonymous24Anonymous24

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous12 I’m sorry you are going thru this…I’m not a professional so I can’t really tell you if it is still just postpartum ocd or more psychosis…but please talk to ur psychiatrist about it and then see what he/she says and take it from there

Username: SPH

Date posted: 5y ago

Does anyone have postpartum-triggered OCD or harm thoughts involving their baby or children? I just had my first child two months ago and am obsessed with the fear I’m going to hurt her or that I don’t love her.

Harm OCD

Username: Caree

Date posted: 2y ago

I’m a new mom with out of control OCD

I’m a mom of a 6 month old and my OCD has gotten so bad that my brain constantly convinces me that I’m doing something bad to her or feeling a gross way about her to the point where I don’t even want to be near her. This is breaking my heart because I love my daughter so much and had such a strong bond with her and this is killing me and making me sad/feel disgusting at the same time.

Username: Kilo2001

Date posted: 1y ago

I can’t stop crying.

OCD stole those precious moments away from my baby and I. She’s 18 months now but I went through so much. I was having really scary thoughts. I didn’t want to be around her cause I was scared I was going to hurt her. I avoided my baby when she needed her mother. I was so scared to be alone with her. It hurts so bad. She’s the most perfect thing on this earth and I feel like she deserves so much better. I’ve struggled with OCD and depression all my life. I’m so scared that I’m going to ruin her somehow with all my mental health issues. God I just want the best for her. I can’t get over the guilt. I’m 20 weeks with my second and I’m so scared. I love my babies so much but i don’t want to ruin them.

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