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Yes??
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really? like i don’t even really have vivid intrusive thoughts of violence i just obsess over the thought that i feel like i WILL kill somebody someday and it’s really scary. i’m here for you! :(
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We need to remind ourselves to accept the thoughts not disprove them
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Yes! This is a constant for me. I never have specific thoughts about harm anymore, mine has just turned into wondering if I’m a psycho who would kill her daughter. It’s debilitating. I check every interaction I have with her. When you are just reading a book to your baby and your mind “do you want to kill her? Do you secretly want her dead?” It’s the most paralyzing experience. Thank you for posting this.
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Omg, it’s so scary, I get scared I’m SpEd or something. The obsessions tell me such horrible things then they turn around and act like I’m the one that’s crazy and that I’m gonna end up in a mental institute for “my bad thoughts.”
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This made me feel very comforted:)
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Also, I wanted to say you are really brave:) I’ve thought about posting about this for a long time but never got up the courage to:/ Bc I really, legitimately worry sometimes that I’m going to kill someone or that I’m a sociopath. I constantly check my actions and thoughts to see “is that something a murderer or a sociopath would be doing/thinking?” Sometimes if I get angry I think “what if I lost control now or in the future and hurt them or someone else??” It’s not even that I’m thinking “I want to hurt them,” it’s “what if I become a different person or something and lose it?” It’s so scary for me and I feel like such an evil piece of trash?
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Yep
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thank YOU so much for sharing, that sounds terrifying. :(
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Yep! It’s the same for me!!! That is EXACTLY what happens to me:( I’ve felt terrified, extremely guilty, even suicidal over it. It’s awful?
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I’ve always struggled with maladaptive daydreaming I’ve stopped but I have harm ocd and my brain would hook onto a true crime story and I’d pretend to be a family member/loved one/victim of a k*ller and would make up elaborate stories abt it. That feels so disgusting I’m so scared this shows in a horrible person doesn’t it? And now my brain is telling me I have found k*llers attractive in the past I don’t think I ever did but what if I did I’m scared
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So I have harm ocd for sure and I get triggered by some m1rder cases like for some reason my brain gets latched to them and the perpetrators my brain goes ‘what if they’d find you attractive’ ‘would you be one of their victims’ and it feels like they’re watching me, if that makes sense, like they’re watching me, is this a symptom of any type of OCD? Please no judgement I’m super scared and I hate that my brain does this
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I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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