This feeling of something bubbling inside my chest, its growing and getting harsher and could explode any minute, i cant focus or do anything, its too intense.

im so scared that this is just denial and that im actuall gay. idk what to do anymore i need help. its just constant anxiety in my chest and i hate it. is there anything i can do to help?

these days I feel particularly bad. I can't let the thoughts and those scenes be there without going deeper into it. Everything about my sister has become a trigger for me, and I have the impression that she "turns me on" and creates a big panic. I feel like I can't breathe because I don't know how to let it all go and I don't attach importance... 5 months of ERP and now this, I can't do it, I don't know it...and I don't know what else to do...

I was just lying on my bed and i felt mh heart stop for a second and it felt like it was beinb squeezed. Im freaking out this has never happened before