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Yes
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Good to know I'm not the only one!
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Hope I described that well enough, didn't want to put too much in case there was triggers ?
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Yeah I often feel the same. I've been pretty good at refraining from giving into compulsions this time round but have been awful in the past. Hate thinking how it's made me act. Not who I want to be at all. But every day forward is a little bit of progress so fingers crossed!
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I've been re-reading Joshua Fletchers book on RJ and find everything is resonating with me a lot the second time round. I definitely recommend it
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I’m sorry I have obsessional jealousy
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What's that
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Retroactive Jealousy or obsessional jealousy?
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Both...
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If iam correct retroactive jealousy is obsessing over your partners previous sexual partners and history obsessional jealousy is obsessing that your partner has cheated or going to cheat
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RJ is basically obsessing over a partners sexual or romantic past, and compulsions can manifest as constantly seeking reassurance or asking questions with a morbid interest to find out more in the hope of managed your anxiety. Or compulsions can be mental, like seeing a thought through, or trying to think of all the ways what you believe isn't true. Comes with 'mental movies', anxiety obviously, resentment, judgement and often doubt about whether or not your partner is right for you because of their past, regardless of how extensive their past is
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Very similar then ?
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All of the same sytpoms and obsessions and ind intrusive thoughts except yours is about your partners past and mine is who she could potentially cheat with are you on meds as well ? And have you had cbt ?
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I was on meds in the past and did do CBT but at the time we thought it was GAD and depression. It's only recently I've accepted it could be a manifestation of OCD. So right now I'm working with a therapist but still in early days. Had this in almost every relationship for the last 8 years though
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Accepting is key and being given the the tools from cbt to equip yourself better will help ?
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And if you got a loving understanding partner helps to
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I hope so! Thanks!
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Yeah I have it. It's not fun. I feel like the compulsions turn me into a bad person at times. I can resist for a few days but end up caving in after a few days. It's tough but you gotta keep fighting. ??
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I have realised that mine does stem from low self esteem from years of racism at school, body issues from being fat as a child and a skin condition I had when younger. I am working on CBT with my therapist and trying to get through ERP. I am also doing my own work on my self esteem and being more positive in general. It's gonna be a long fight but I am confident that I will win it and I am very lucky I have a supportive girlfriend who is with me all the way.
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Yeah I've definitely got some self esteem issues to work through, and it seems that everyone I speak to or read about with it has been bullied at school at some point. It's not our fault, but we can still fix it. My girlfriends been great too, definitely better than some in the past. So I'm sure we both can come through this at the other side!
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Yeah. Oddly enough I didn't consider the racism to be bullying but it definitely had a huge effect on my life. But I also have a parent with OCD/Anxiety so I was more susceptible to it anyway. I just gotta learn to be more positive and build up that self image and I hope I will be much better off.
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Yeah I just read that. Found it to be a lot better than Zackary Stockhills. I am enjoying Tedx talks on positivity and self esteem and the OCD Stories on YouTube. Recommended them.
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Yeah I agree. There's a new thing I've came across called retr-act.com. Basically a group of counsellors who specialize in RJ. Was speaking to a counselor from there for a while but he was too pricey and wasn't a fan of Skype. But there's some good content if you haven't seen it already. Cheers I'll have a look at those!
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Hi through ERP I have learned how to live with thoughts without them having the power to upset and drive you nuts. A bit more background: I have Retrospective Jealousy OCD. It started around 30 years ago when I met my now wife. I struggled with the thoughts about her past not knowing what was happening and when they first came on the pain was unbearable and I tried to kill myself. I then had years of going to therapists that were useless as they failed to realise it was OCD. Four years ago I finally was diagnosed and with the help of a great psychotherapist I have been doing ERP and at last things have improved. Before that I was totally at its mercy and I would get so angry and upset with my wife it was awful. Luckily we are still together. I would like to connect with others with this type of OCD to hopefully provide some support and understanding whether you have not yet been diagnosed or you are or are due to begin ERP . ERP was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. If years ago I had known other people with this OCD who knew what the diagnosis is and how to treat it it would have saved years of pain and suffering.
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Hey everyone, First time posting here! Wanted to share my story for some support but also to hopefully make others feel less alone. In short - my ROCD has made such a mess of my personal life. I was in a great relationship until spring of last year, at which point we separated mainly due to my ROCD. I struggled heavily with OCD about 10 years ago (harm based intrusive thoughts, sexual orientation ocd, etc). It took a lot of work but I was able to mostly overcome my struggles and truthfully, hadn’t given ocd much thought since then. I thought I was cured. And then 10 years later I am in a very fulfilling relationship with a girl I really love, but at about the year mark in my relationship things really changed. She wanted to have a conversation about next steps (moving in, marriage, kids, etc) and at that point my brain just went into panic mode and the ocd took over. From that point on, I was constantly scanning for red flags, felt very reserved when it came to any sort of statement or commitment and tended to avoid anything that would indicate I was committed to a long term future. It was not that I didn’t love it was just that my ocd was doing anything to keep me from making a big commitment. It eventually got a point where we had a big conversation about breaking up or staying together and my OCD convinced me that it was safer and that I would do less harm to her if we ended things, which was incredibly devastating to me. At the time I felt like my obsessing over small red flags were normal and that I needed to protect myself. I just had no clue it was ROCD. I spent the next 8 months missing her and kicking myself for my mistakes, and I eventually got the courage to reach out and see if she’d be willing to talk again, which she was. But the problem is, at this point I still didn’t know it was ocd. So when we talked again I was still plagued by ROCD as all the same thoughts and feelings came flooding back. We tried to talk through things but once again I was unable to make any sort of commitment to the future so it went nowhere. Once again, I am feeling very sad and angry at myself for not being able to handle ROCD. I feel like I let it control me twice and has robbed me of a lot of happiness and hurt someone I care very much about. I understand it’s probably not best to just look at ourselves with anger and guilt all the time but it’s hard not to when you feel like you just caused so much harm. Anyone feel like they can relate? Or if anyone is going through something similar I am happy to chat as ROCD can really be tricky. Thanks
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I’m gonna try to make this make sense, and any support or advice would be great. I have a beautiful girlfriend, who I’ve been dating off and on for a year. We were really rocky but got our shit figured out 4 months ago and have been strong since. I truly love this girl more than I’ve loved anyone. And I know based off the sheer amount of ocd that has come up on our relationship, that she means a lot to me. Me and her were in a friend group in 2022 and we never liked each other. However she had a sexual relationship with one of my old friends. Fast forward to now I haven’t talked to him in a long time and I don’t see it as an issue. However… I keep having this vivid flashback to him touching her some kinda way in 2022. I can’t remember exactly what happened or the details but it’s running through my head. I guess this is retroactive jealousy but it’s really almost hurting my feelings. I wish it would stop but I know ocd doesn’t work that way. I just wanna be happy with my girl and not upset at her past experiences
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