- Date posted
- 3y
I wanna cry šheart is broken
Revisiting my college I was supposed to attend this fall beginning last week. Due to all my circumstances , I cannot attend unfortunately . I had to come back to pay off cancellation fee . I had to sign stuff too . So I am offically unenrolled :( . Coming back made me feel emotional knowing what I will miss out on. Seeing all these newly college students ready to learn and behind their careersš„ŗI know itās something I was lookin forward too. Everyone is out here doing all sorts of activities , meanwhile I jus came back jus to leave for good because I wonāt be attending . As much as I wanted to start college , I know I cannot do so due to mental health . Itās a lot that Iām going through ...especially with ocd being top factor to all my other fallbacks and problems. Iāve currently been in a loop so far Thars still lingering for over a month and I donāt really feel much on daily basis anymore . I feel disoriented šI donāt even feel like me anymore . Thereās a lot I need to catch up on as an adult whoās starting late to everything . Iām not going anywhere in life šI jus wanna live normally without my ocd consuming me 24/7. Iām jealous of everyone