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I wanna cry 💔heart is broken
Revisiting my college I was supposed to attend this fall beginning last week. Due to all my circumstances , I cannot attend unfortunately . I had to come back to pay off cancellation fee . I had to sign stuff too . So I am offically unenrolled :( . Coming back made me feel emotional knowing what I will miss out on. Seeing all these newly college students ready to learn and behind their careers🥺I know it’s something I was lookin forward too. Everyone is out here doing all sorts of activities , meanwhile I jus came back jus to leave for good because I won’t be attending . As much as I wanted to start college , I know I cannot do so due to mental health . It’s a lot that I’m going through ...especially with ocd being top factor to all my other fallbacks and problems. I’ve currently been in a loop so far Thars still lingering for over a month and I don’t really feel much on daily basis anymore . I feel disoriented 💔I don’t even feel like me anymore . There’s a lot I need to catch up on as an adult who’s starting late to everything . I’m not going anywhere in life 😔I jus wanna live normally without my ocd consuming me 24/7. I’m jealous of everyone