Episode !!!!!

Currently having an episode, feeling like I'm going bizarre. I know it's not new, i already have a year in this but anytime it happens it feels like this is the time. Right now it feels like i can't control my body, like nothing neither me are real ( DPDR) and im scared to death for acting on my thoughts ( stabbing my family) and i wanna cry so bad but bcz of meds sometimes i cant cry. For the zillionth time wishing i could be tied up in my bed, so that i cant move. Ocd sucks more than any word i can say. All i want is just my mom and family to be safe.

Username: AngelarmAngelarm

Date posted: 2y ago

I suffer from the same thing. Hurting people that I love. We need to stay strong. We need to understand that we have OCD and that we can get through this. Reach out to me if you need to. I have been suffering from harm OCD since I was 21 years old and now I'm 51.

Username: Arjy.is.rec0vrering.from.ocdArjy.is.rec0...

Date posted: 2y ago

Thank u💙its so tough sometimes and it aches in a way no word would ever be capable of screaming off. Sending love 💕💕

Username: Claymation 711Claymation 711

Date posted: 2y ago

🥺🥺🥺♥️♥️♥️♥️

Username: Arjy.is.rec0vrering.from.ocdArjy.is.rec0...

Date posted: 2y ago

🫂💙

Username: NasimNasim

Date posted: 2y ago

I understand what you mean. It must have been so hard for you. I was about to give you reassurance but i was afraid that this isn't right and might make your condition worse l. Nocd says that. So i just want you to know i sympathies with you and it aches my heart hearing your story. By the way if you are using medication and feel it's not helping you, be in touch with your psychiatrist and tell him how you feel. People are different. One medicine might work for you but it might not work for someone else. People can respond differently to the same treatment. . So talk to your psychiatrist and tell him. You can even call him and tell him your problems and he might make change to your meds. You completely have this right. So "don't suffer alone. Call when you have a problem". That's what my psychiatrist told me once. And i found a book about harm ocd. I didn't read it completely but i think it's about your condition.

Username: Arjy.is.rec0vrering.from.ocdArjy.is.rec0...

Date posted: 2y ago

You've no idea how dearest these words are to me. It aches in every inch of my being, of my soul and body. It would destroy me knowing that they might be in a bad situation ( daily one) let alone their d*ath let alooone caused by my hand. I am using fluoxetine for about a year and magnesium since 4 months. I have felt like shifting meds many times but knowing that i can't hide behind meds forever shatters my soul. I wanna look at fear dead in the eye, yet it's eating me alive. Ocd sucks more than anything else

Username: NasimNasim

Date posted: 2y ago

Overcoming Harm OCD Mindfulness and CBT Tools for Coping with Unwanted Violent Thoughts JON HERSHFIELD, MFT New Harbinger Publications, Inc. Patrick B. McGrath, PhD, assistant vice president and residential services clinical director at AMITA Health, Foglia Family Foundation Residential Treatment Center “Overcoming Harm OCD is a remarkable contribution to the self-help literature on OCD. Hershfield has a masterful way of presenting complex concepts in an easy-to-understand manner and then linking them with effective therapeutic strategies. This book will be a valuable resource for individuals with Harm OCD, as well as applied practitioners who work with individuals with OCD or who simply want to learn more.” ☝️☝️That's the book i am talking about

Username: NasimNasim

Date posted: 2y ago

I wish i could send it for you in here but it seems it's not possible.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

Me too!

Username: NasimNasim

Date posted: 2y ago

Do you mind if i give you my email address here so you can send me an email and i send the PDF for you? 🤔 I'm okay with it i just don't know if it's the right thing to do concerning privacy or if I'm allowed to do this🤔 But I'm okay if you don't have a problem with it.

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 25d ago

Not sure if you’re still on here. But I am currently going through this. If you see this, could you tell me how you’re doing?

Username: libramama88

Date posted: 1y ago

I can't stand living like this. OCD is killing me.

I suffer with harm and intrusive thoughts about my children. Sometimes I'm good sometimes I feel like a crazed woman. I was trying to put my 2 year old to bed last night and I was so scared something was going to happen but I fought through and my son was being wild as always lol and jumping on my belly and I had my hand on his chest for support and then he moved and I scratched him right below his neck on accident but when I woke up this morning I felt like I did something bad. This constant worry is driving me mad. I know deep down it was an accident but my OCD brain wants me to think it was intentional. Can ANYONE RELATE/? I FEEL SO ALONE

Username: Cats in the ...

Date posted: 1y ago

Ocd

Can anyone please confort me? I'm having a really bad panic attack, I can't stop crying and I feel like im losing my mind from the fear. I feel like maybe I should just go to the hospital because it feels so real

Username: Jersey Jayne

Date posted: 37w ago

Scared of who I'm going to be when I wake up

I've been shutting myself away lately because I'm so fu^king sick of this cycle of me turning into a g0ddamned baby and then hysterically crying for hours on end and having my family helplessly watch and not know how to help. Nobody knows how to help. I don't even know what I need. I want to give up and just stare at the wall until somebody can save me. If my brain isn't constantly distracted and numbed I'm spiraling. I switch minute to minute from being super depressed to hyper and talkative yet somehow I manage to hold it all inside. It's getting very hard to communicate/mask. Every night I feel fine. I feel scared and sad, but I feel the most normal at this time. When I wake up, it starts all over again. I wake up in panic attack mode and drag myself to work. I swear to god I can't help myself anymore. Nothing I do helps and it's too exhausting. I think I'm just gonna keep letting myself suffer because I'm so sick of trying to get help and then have it not help. I know this is just an episode but jesus christ it's so f^cking scary. I believe everything my brain tells me but I don't even know what it's telling me. All I know is there's this extreme PUSH to be flooded with extreme sadness and anxiety, and it's very REAL. I feel like I need to be locked up and studied. I truly feel alone in this condition because I genuinely believe there is no one in this world who has been having these symptoms the way I do. Four years of this, several mental health professionals, and I still don't have an answer. When will I be able to rest? Even reading this message makes me think "that's not me. where did I go?" There's not even a specific reason why i'm feeling so extremely horrible. It starts as a pure OCD attack about something and then before I know it I spend a week crying. Anyway I have work in the morning I don't know how I keep going and getting out of bed every day knowing that ending up like this is definitely a possibility. I really don't know how I'm still alive. Something is extremely wrong with me and no one seems to understand just how bad it is. What do I need to do in order to get someone to understand the severity of it all? I wish nothing but healing and peace and permanent remission for all of you tough souls ❤️

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