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Anyone struggling with False memory ocd?
Hey if anyone is struggling with this do you have any tips because I really need some support right now ,Thankyou:)
Hey if anyone is struggling with this do you have any tips because I really need some support right now ,Thankyou:)
I deal with False Memory / Real Event OCD. My False Memories center around the theme of my Real Events and make me believe of many things I could have done. Its so hard to not believe them because even my brain says they are real :( Like I want to say its real even though they couldn't be but whatever. Every thing I do each and every day will always create something or a thought of "I've done it." Sometimes I don't even get memories or a vivid image, just a feeling of yes I've done that before. I feel so alone in it :(
@InkJoy123 Don’t worry I’m here talk to me :)
Yes, due to brain damage and prexisting OCD issues my mind is untrustworthy. I don't feel as if I have created a shameful existence but at times I mix people up or scenes mixed up and I fear I look a liar. I know it's not true but I also fear others may not understand. I feel better sometimes but then I realized it's because I haven't challenged myself. I was embarrassed when I mixed up a friend with a child from my past. The two in my mind are the same but I know it's not true so it's the worst. I'm lucky my friends know of my issue but no one can stop a person from internally judging and it saddens me that I can't get as reliable as I once was.
@Pollu You are not alone,it’s really scary because i feel like what if most of the things I’ve thought about aren’t real,I just wish this was all over,I know what you mean and it’s really distressing,but I promise you will get through this it always always gets better,you just have to believe it!and because my head is so full I’m so clumsy and forgetful.i promise you will get through this you are strong I’m here with you! 😊
@Elicambel The internal questions of whether or not it's true is something I try to abandon because I can't think about the connections too much I get wiped out and moody even emotional at times. Who knows what's getting shook lose up this noggin. Thank you for your forward thinking and allowing a space to vent our combined frustrations. I can tell your a good egg so don't be too hard on yourself! 🫂
@Pollu Thankyou so much,I can tell you are a wonderful person,don’t forget that,I’m always always here to talk again so please stay in touch :)I’m trying to help as much people on this app as possible because i love to make people feel better I hate to see them in pain,so remember I’m always here to chat! And remember don’t be so hard on yourself either! Thankyou so so much for your help!keep in touch 🫶🫂
I struggle with false memory as well. I’ve noticed in centered within my fears so already questioning falls easily as within events. I try not to check when it happens, I sit and think it’s impossible and i exercise my brain to go step by step and remind myself it’s ocd. Ocd loves to attach.
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@Monitica I have a real event and it plays into that and the theme within it. It just feels so real at times cause it feels like its something I would have done I guess you can say ? Like the possibility is there because of my real events I now feel guilty over. I don't even know how the me before was.... but it just tells me I've done these things and Idk how to like deal with them. Trying my best not to tell my friend about a false memory dealing with their sibling but its so hard...
im going to be vague here, but basically i did something in the past that i regret and it became a huge point of my OCD but i have talked to my therapist and i have mostly moved past it. i watched a video by an OCD youtuber that really put it into perspective. anyway, i have been with minimal worry for a few days, but now im having worries related to i think false memory? basically it’s like “oh but what if i said/ did this and just forgot that means i harmed this person im a bad person”. to me it sounds like textbook OCD but im just wondering if anyone else has experienced false memory / real event at the same time. i have a really horrible memory which is making it even more stressful. any responses are appreciated!
Hello all, I’ve dealt with various OCD themes and compulsions for pretty much as long as I can remember. In some periods of my life the thoughts and compulsions have been particularly severe, but I’ve also had years where I’m able to keep it under control. This has made me worry I don’t actually have OCD, especially because I haven’t been doing consistent therapy and my therapists have gone back and forth on whether I have OCD. In the past few years, I’ve struggled immensely with false memory ocd, and right now I’m going through probably the most severe episode of my life. I love my boyfriend with all my heart. A few times that I’ve gone out drinking I’ve had the thought before “what if I lost control and cheated tonight” and it’s bothered me severely. Two times before, it’s gotten to the point of convincing myself that because I talked to a man that meant I had cheated on my boyfriend and just couldn’t remember. It has never turned out to be true. About a month ago, I went out with friends and had too much to drink. I was really ashamed of myself the next morning, particularly because I always try to drink cautiously now that I know it can trigger my anxiety. I am ashamed to admit I do not remember the very end of the night getting in my uber and going home. I woke up anxious and extremely worried and immediately started off by worrying if I could have tried to kiss my friend and not remembered. I called him and was immediately reassured nothing had happened, I simply drank too much and went home at the end of the night. I started feeling better, but then remembered a moment I had been in the bathroom. I remembered chatting with people in line about how long the line was, and then being in the bathroom on my phone. I then felt like I remembered people knocking and saying to myself “that wasn’t that long” and leaving. There is nothing concrete that I remember that in any way indicates I cheated, and in fact I have texts with my boyfriend from the whole night telling him I loved him. My friend told me that the only time I was ever apart from him was about 5 minutes and that when he came back I was in the same exact spot he left me in. However, when I remembered being in the bathroom, I thought to myself “what if you cheated on him in the bathroom”/ “oh my god did you cheat on him in the bathroom” and then a series of images of me performing sexual acts popped into my head. I’ve poured over my memory and truly do not remember meeting anyone, talking to anyone, or even finding anyone attractive that night, but the fact that I was drinking makes me worried I’m just forgetting and these images could be real. I’ve been constantly ruminating on these fears for the past month, to the point that the only relief I feel is when I’m able to fall asleep. I’m a law student and it’s becoming extremely difficult to keep up with my classes. I’ve been google searching, asked chat gpt for advice, confessed my fears to my boyfriend, asked for reassurance from pretty much everyone in my life, and even emailed the bar asking for security footage (which I know all sounds insane). I’m a naturally guilty person and feel bad about small things, so I really don’t think I would be capable of cheating and then nonchalantly texting my boyfriend, but these images feel so real that it’s terrifying. I’ve also seen a lot about how I would “just know” and that begins to scare me because then I think “you do just know, you did it” even though I really don’t think I did. I know these posts are not supposed to be for reassurance seeking, I’m just so exhausted and feeling really depressed. I’m wondering if anyone has experienced something similar and has any advice. I’m also wondering if images can feel more real the more you ruminate on them or if it’s a sign of memory. Thank you so much for listening.
How can I deal with False Memory OCD? I am struggling with ruminating thoughts, and trying to figure out false memories! How can I enjoy my day without figuring it out?
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