As soon as I booked an appointment for ERP, my OCD decided to fade away after months of dealing with it. Now my mind is telling me to cancel the appointment because I’m “better” now 🤦♀️
No, don’t cancel it! It’ll always be with you and it’s better to get help now than cancel and have it come back even worse.
@Nica I definitely agree!
Oh Lord this is literally it. It's like the clarity of super fear.
It sounds a bit like your mind is trying to trick you. Hope you remember that your OCD doesn't want to go away, so it will be sneaky making you stay away from treatment.
@Emilhaagen99 You’re 100% right! OCD can make any feeling feel so real.
This happened with me ! I was really bad for a long period of time and then when I started getting help I felt “better” and I wasn’t really passionate about ERP or therapy in general because I thought I didn’t need it. Then when it finished and my therapist sent me on my way a few weeks later it was all back 🥲😂 it was some sick joke but it is what it is I guess
@markson This is exactly how I feel right now 😭 since I’m feeling good at the moment I feel like it’s not necessary to go through with it, but if I don’t it’ll probably get worse.
I had the exact same thing!! Ocd was so bad then booked an appointment with an erp therapist for the first time, and felt so much better and spent the whole first session saying how I didn't need therapy ... therapist saw through it (thank god) and I spent 6 months in Erp therapy where I had numerous relapses. Go to the appointment 🙌 even if you feel better the whole time, it's good to get the tools in case you ever relapse!
I’ve been feeling this exact way I thought I was gaslighting myself into thinking I have ocd! I have over a week before my first session and wake up everyday thinking “I’m not bad enough” when my thoughts before making the appointment were “I’m so bad!” I guess the ocd always shows you what you don’t “want” to see. When I admitted this to my partner, I started the sentence with, “I’ve been obsessing over if I have ocd or not” and then realized saying it outloud… it’s an obsession no matter what it’s trying to disguise itself as. I feel proud when I make connections like that and feel I am looking ocd in the face and saying “HA!”
From my experience, I’ve done this many times with different things and it didn’t work out very well lol.
I know I need therapy. I have a flare up every three months that rocks my world— it’s been like this for four years. I’m just too scared. I’m too scared to have a therapist tell me I’m a lesbian. I’m too scared to do ERP and have it not work because it wasn’t actually OCD. I’m too scared for the ERP to work and me finally feel comfortable with being bisexual or a lesbian. I don’t want any of that to happen. I don’t understand how I can get over this and still be straight. I’m petrified at the thought of therapy, but what is going to happen to me?
Hi everyone. I'm feeling kinda scared because I have to wait a whole month to start ERP therapy, but I feel like I need to start doing exposures now because the longer I wait, the more anxiety I get. It just feels like the OCD monster is getting worse. One thing that helps me is asking one person about an obsession I have...asking a person that I trust, and then doing an exposure after I get the "ok" to do it. I feel like I do need 1 reassurance and then I can go ahead and do it. I know i'm not supposed to ask for reassurance at all, but i dont think you're supposed to do ERP on your own right? Does anyone have any suggestions for what to do while waiting for therapy? PS-the reason there is a wait is bc she's on vacation. After she's back we will meet regularly.
I’ve noticed that I’m somewhat happier also ignoring my thoughts than I am instead of doing compulsions (I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired atp) but I’ve heard you’re technically supposed to do erp rather than pushing under the rug. But idk if I have a thought I just refuse to think about it again and im fine even if I want to do compulsions
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