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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
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Did anyone just say yeah I’m definitely gay and have their anxiety disappear? Kind of like making your ocd chicken out like a coward? Now I’m honestly not sure if this is ocd anymore
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Yeah my anxiety came back full force cuz I was like wait I don’t wanna be that
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- aretousa aretousa
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Actually this is what happened to me, I accepted the possibility of me being gay and my socd just faded away like it was never there, but after it was over my ocd changed its theme to something even worse 🧍🏼♀️
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- AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y ago
@What up Mine is starting to evolve to intrusive feelings. I’ve even had clarity moments of being straight but now I just don’t know anymore. It’s not something I’ve ever wanted and still don’t I was always wanting a husband but now my mind says that was all comphet
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Anonymous And then last week when I was visiting my boyfriend I was playing COD with his friend and for some reason got intrusive thoughts of developing a crush on him so that makes it even more confusing
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- KayPiKayPi
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Had the same thing happen with my existential ocd. Said yeah everyone else is a simulation with no emotions and it made it fade a bit
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- AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y ago
@KayPi Thanks for replying! It’s just scary because I don’t want to be in denial. I got a boyfriend right before all of this and then my depression hit and that’s when this all started. I’ve always had a hard time making friends that were girls and now I’m convinced that this was because I was actually attracted to them (even though I’ve had multiple crushes in my life, my first one being at 7 years old and my last boyfriend I could see a future with-house and kids and would daydream about that)
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Anonymous Sorry for the long post I’ve just been dealing with it for the last 6 months and am tired of it
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- KayPiKayPi
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- 2y ago
@Anonymous That's okay! 6 months of dealing with the same issue is awful, I know it all too well. Perhaps an ERP exercise could be wondering if you're bi, seeing as it's more uncertain than gay/straight?(sorry if that thought alarms you)
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- AnonymousAnonymous
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- 2y ago
I’m not able to afford therapy right now since my insurance doesn’t cover it. It’s okay Im at a point where I just don’t care anymore and my antidepressants are causing emotional blunting so normally something I’d be sad about I feel nothing. This tried to latch onto my friend and as soon as I said okay im bi, the thoughts and “feelings” went away and I was like yeah no I definitely don’t have feelings for her
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- ssethi48ssethi48
- Date posted
- 2y ago
yeah i told myself that but when i think about it I get anxiety so clearly it’s not right.
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- Lukej91Lukej91
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- 2y ago
It comes from the emotional part of the brain so you truly have to except it. We're stuck in the logical part of the brain. You can't say I accept it you truly have to except it and be ok with it. This is the step I'm falling down on. I have to except that I like the thoughts and the feelings without caring. The hard part is I like the thoughts and then that scares me and that's why I'm still stuck https://youtu.be/WhAQ8C02D-M
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- Lukej91Lukej91
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- 2y ago
So it's an emotional shift that comes from the emotional brain not the logical part. The emotional part has no understanding of words it only reacts with emotions and behavior
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- ssethi48ssethi48
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- 2y ago
@Lukej91 yeah I keep telling myself I have truly accepted it but it gives me anxiety so
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- Laurie
- Date posted
- 6y ago
HOCDers: do any of you ever go through moments that feel like realisation or discovery of being gay (I hate this so much because I know I’m not) Also does your ocd ever make you feel funny about being straight when you know you are? Sometimes if I say to myself ‘I’m straight’ I get a sensation that isn’t quite anxiety, I don’t know if it’s a longing/missing just knowing?
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- Iann
- Date posted
- 5y ago
This feels weird. I feel like I’m gay, and when I “accept” My thoughts I don’t feel good or pleasure, just this weight on my chest. Like my mind says “okay you’re gay see” but when I think of me in gay scenarios I feel no pleasure at all. Yet I lost my attraction to women. My mind still says I’m gay though I feel nothing towards men. But it appears my attraction to women disappeared as well. What is this? Why did I used to have extremely mad anxiety over gay thoughts and now that I finally faced my thoughts I feel nothing as well? Like seriously what is this. I used to be girl crazy like to another level. Now I’m not attracted to women at all apparently but when I “accept” my thoughts and say ok I’m gay, I feel nothing towards men either. Is this still ocd? And why when I do have anxiety with gay thoughts it seems like I AM attracted to men. I don’t understand this. Do any of you have any experience and share some insight?
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- alex.123
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I need desperate help I’m confused because when I said I’m not straight it felt true and there wasn’t any anxiety and it felt as if it weren’t ocd. Then I compared it to saying I’m straight and that gave a 5 second relief then a little bit of anxiety. So then I said fuck it and kept saying I’m not straight and it gives me anxiety but it still feels so true and real and as if it’s not ocd and it’s truly happening.
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