Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Question

Did anyone just say yeah I’m definitely gay and have their anxiety disappear? Kind of like making your ocd chicken out like a coward? Now I’m honestly not sure if this is ocd anymore

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Yeah my anxiety came back full force cuz I was like wait I don’t wanna be that

aretousa

Date posted: 2y ago

Actually this is what happened to me, I accepted the possibility of me being gay and my socd just faded away like it was never there, but after it was over my ocd changed its theme to something even worse 🧍🏼‍♀️

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@What up Mine is starting to evolve to intrusive feelings. I’ve even had clarity moments of being straight but now I just don’t know anymore. It’s not something I’ve ever wanted and still don’t I was always wanting a husband but now my mind says that was all comphet

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous And then last week when I was visiting my boyfriend I was playing COD with his friend and for some reason got intrusive thoughts of developing a crush on him so that makes it even more confusing

KayPi

Date posted: 2y ago

Had the same thing happen with my existential ocd. Said yeah everyone else is a simulation with no emotions and it made it fade a bit

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@KayPi Thanks for replying! It’s just scary because I don’t want to be in denial. I got a boyfriend right before all of this and then my depression hit and that’s when this all started. I’ve always had a hard time making friends that were girls and now I’m convinced that this was because I was actually attracted to them (even though I’ve had multiple crushes in my life, my first one being at 7 years old and my last boyfriend I could see a future with-house and kids and would daydream about that)

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous Sorry for the long post I’ve just been dealing with it for the last 6 months and am tired of it

KayPi

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anonymous That's okay! 6 months of dealing with the same issue is awful, I know it all too well. Perhaps an ERP exercise could be wondering if you're bi, seeing as it's more uncertain than gay/straight?(sorry if that thought alarms you)

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

I’m not able to afford therapy right now since my insurance doesn’t cover it. It’s okay Im at a point where I just don’t care anymore and my antidepressants are causing emotional blunting so normally something I’d be sad about I feel nothing. This tried to latch onto my friend and as soon as I said okay im bi, the thoughts and “feelings” went away and I was like yeah no I definitely don’t have feelings for her

ssethi48

Date posted: 2y ago

yeah i told myself that but when i think about it I get anxiety so clearly it’s not right.

Lukej91

Date posted: 2y ago

It comes from the emotional part of the brain so you truly have to except it. We're stuck in the logical part of the brain. You can't say I accept it you truly have to except it and be ok with it. This is the step I'm falling down on. I have to except that I like the thoughts and the feelings without caring. The hard part is I like the thoughts and then that scares me and that's why I'm still stuck https://youtu.be/WhAQ8C02D-M

Lukej91

Date posted: 2y ago

So it's an emotional shift that comes from the emotional brain not the logical part. The emotional part has no understanding of words it only reacts with emotions and behavior

ssethi48

Date posted: 2y ago

@Lukej91 yeah I keep telling myself I have truly accepted it but it gives me anxiety so

Secretidentity

Date posted: 21w ago

Does any one ever question if their ocd isn’t ocd?

That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.

Elliesmith

Date posted: 13w ago

Is this a symptom of soocd

I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?

Mt2019

Date posted: 11w ago

Question about HOCD

Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please

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