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Did anyone just say yeah I’m definitely gay and have their anxiety disappear? Kind of like making your ocd chicken out like a coward? Now I’m honestly not sure if this is ocd anymore
Did anyone just say yeah I’m definitely gay and have their anxiety disappear? Kind of like making your ocd chicken out like a coward? Now I’m honestly not sure if this is ocd anymore
Yeah my anxiety came back full force cuz I was like wait I don’t wanna be that
Actually this is what happened to me, I accepted the possibility of me being gay and my socd just faded away like it was never there, but after it was over my ocd changed its theme to something even worse 🧍🏼♀️
@What up Mine is starting to evolve to intrusive feelings. I’ve even had clarity moments of being straight but now I just don’t know anymore. It’s not something I’ve ever wanted and still don’t I was always wanting a husband but now my mind says that was all comphet
@Anonymous And then last week when I was visiting my boyfriend I was playing COD with his friend and for some reason got intrusive thoughts of developing a crush on him so that makes it even more confusing
Had the same thing happen with my existential ocd. Said yeah everyone else is a simulation with no emotions and it made it fade a bit
@KayPi Thanks for replying! It’s just scary because I don’t want to be in denial. I got a boyfriend right before all of this and then my depression hit and that’s when this all started. I’ve always had a hard time making friends that were girls and now I’m convinced that this was because I was actually attracted to them (even though I’ve had multiple crushes in my life, my first one being at 7 years old and my last boyfriend I could see a future with-house and kids and would daydream about that)
@Anonymous Sorry for the long post I’ve just been dealing with it for the last 6 months and am tired of it
@Anonymous That's okay! 6 months of dealing with the same issue is awful, I know it all too well. Perhaps an ERP exercise could be wondering if you're bi, seeing as it's more uncertain than gay/straight?(sorry if that thought alarms you)
I’m not able to afford therapy right now since my insurance doesn’t cover it. It’s okay Im at a point where I just don’t care anymore and my antidepressants are causing emotional blunting so normally something I’d be sad about I feel nothing. This tried to latch onto my friend and as soon as I said okay im bi, the thoughts and “feelings” went away and I was like yeah no I definitely don’t have feelings for her
yeah i told myself that but when i think about it I get anxiety so clearly it’s not right.
It comes from the emotional part of the brain so you truly have to except it. We're stuck in the logical part of the brain. You can't say I accept it you truly have to except it and be ok with it. This is the step I'm falling down on. I have to except that I like the thoughts and the feelings without caring. The hard part is I like the thoughts and then that scares me and that's why I'm still stuck https://youtu.be/WhAQ8C02D-M
So it's an emotional shift that comes from the emotional brain not the logical part. The emotional part has no understanding of words it only reacts with emotions and behavior
@Lukej91 yeah I keep telling myself I have truly accepted it but it gives me anxiety so
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?
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