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Did anyone just say yeah I’m definitely gay and have their anxiety disappear? Kind of like making your ocd chicken out like a coward? Now I’m honestly not sure if this is ocd anymore
Did anyone just say yeah I’m definitely gay and have their anxiety disappear? Kind of like making your ocd chicken out like a coward? Now I’m honestly not sure if this is ocd anymore
Yeah my anxiety came back full force cuz I was like wait I don’t wanna be that
Actually this is what happened to me, I accepted the possibility of me being gay and my socd just faded away like it was never there, but after it was over my ocd changed its theme to something even worse 🧍🏼♀️
@What up Mine is starting to evolve to intrusive feelings. I’ve even had clarity moments of being straight but now I just don’t know anymore. It’s not something I’ve ever wanted and still don’t I was always wanting a husband but now my mind says that was all comphet
@Anonymous And then last week when I was visiting my boyfriend I was playing COD with his friend and for some reason got intrusive thoughts of developing a crush on him so that makes it even more confusing
Had the same thing happen with my existential ocd. Said yeah everyone else is a simulation with no emotions and it made it fade a bit
@KayPi Thanks for replying! It’s just scary because I don’t want to be in denial. I got a boyfriend right before all of this and then my depression hit and that’s when this all started. I’ve always had a hard time making friends that were girls and now I’m convinced that this was because I was actually attracted to them (even though I’ve had multiple crushes in my life, my first one being at 7 years old and my last boyfriend I could see a future with-house and kids and would daydream about that)
@Anonymous Sorry for the long post I’ve just been dealing with it for the last 6 months and am tired of it
@Anonymous That's okay! 6 months of dealing with the same issue is awful, I know it all too well. Perhaps an ERP exercise could be wondering if you're bi, seeing as it's more uncertain than gay/straight?(sorry if that thought alarms you)
I’m not able to afford therapy right now since my insurance doesn’t cover it. It’s okay Im at a point where I just don’t care anymore and my antidepressants are causing emotional blunting so normally something I’d be sad about I feel nothing. This tried to latch onto my friend and as soon as I said okay im bi, the thoughts and “feelings” went away and I was like yeah no I definitely don’t have feelings for her
yeah i told myself that but when i think about it I get anxiety so clearly it’s not right.
It comes from the emotional part of the brain so you truly have to except it. We're stuck in the logical part of the brain. You can't say I accept it you truly have to except it and be ok with it. This is the step I'm falling down on. I have to except that I like the thoughts and the feelings without caring. The hard part is I like the thoughts and then that scares me and that's why I'm still stuck https://youtu.be/WhAQ8C02D-M
So it's an emotional shift that comes from the emotional brain not the logical part. The emotional part has no understanding of words it only reacts with emotions and behavior
@Lukej91 yeah I keep telling myself I have truly accepted it but it gives me anxiety so
For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
I’ve had hocd for around 11 months now. It’s gotten to the point where I’m just convinced that I am bi. I still like boys like I always have, but I feel like I like girls too. I have no anxiety either or active thoughts. It’s just kinda there like yep I’m bi and ok with it. Anyone else? Just curious.
I haven't had anxiety for 1 week, I haven't had so many thoughts, but when it comes to sexuality I feel discomfort and I feel like something is pressing on my chest, it's very disturbing, and I still have attraction (false I hope), I wasn't diagnosed with hocd but I had all the symptoms, (now I don't have anxiety anymore, except when a feeling that I'm gay appears), I no longer felt that strong need to watch videos on yt or look for things that would make me feel comfortable, so somehow I managed to keep this under control, but I don't know if it's recovery or if I'm just lying to myself that I'm not gay. If anyone has any ideas, I hope they write something here
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