suffering with Tocd and I feel like I’m constantly having to fight to feel the way I want to and to be a woman cause I feel like it’s been stolen from me does anyone else feel the same?

I feel like I’m going through something similar. The thoughts feel like strong urges and like I like and want them almost. It’s causing me so much distress, and I feel like I’m barely holding on. I don’t know if this is OCD because it feels like denial and I’m so afraid

@ishdh.2 I feel the exact same I feel like I can never get it right and it sucks and yeah me too it’s hard to tell anymore if it’s ocd and I try to remind myself it is and then my brain is like no this isn’t ocd or something and then I think I’m in denial but I genuinely love the gender I was born into and I had no intentions of ever changing that but now it’s like I don’t know anymore or I’m not secure within my identity and I feel like I’m forcing everything but I loved doing the stuff I did before like putting on makeup and stuff like it made me feel good but now it’s just been so hard to do anything

@khm It’s the same for me. I felt comfortable identifying as a guy with he/him pronouns, and now I have no idea what I want. I’m getting so many intrusive thoughts of being the other gender paired with urges that feel so close to desire that I can’t even tell. It always causes stress but it’s so scary and so hard to know if I’m just forcing that stress. I wanna go back to before when I knew this was all irrational. I’m just so tired

@ishdh.2 i feel the exact same only I like being a woman and now it feels like I want to be a guy but I really don’t and I feel like I have to fight to keep my femininity but it’s literally been so hard and makes me feel like I’m lying to myself and that being a woman isn’t like my true self or something and me too everyday is so hard and long and exhausting I just wish things were how they used to be