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I feel like I’m going through something similar. The thoughts feel like strong urges and like I like and want them almost. It’s causing me so much distress, and I feel like I’m barely holding on. I don’t know if this is OCD because it feels like denial and I’m so afraid
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@ishdh.2 I feel the exact same I feel like I can never get it right and it sucks and yeah me too it’s hard to tell anymore if it’s ocd and I try to remind myself it is and then my brain is like no this isn’t ocd or something and then I think I’m in denial but I genuinely love the gender I was born into and I had no intentions of ever changing that but now it’s like I don’t know anymore or I’m not secure within my identity and I feel like I’m forcing everything but I loved doing the stuff I did before like putting on makeup and stuff like it made me feel good but now it’s just been so hard to do anything
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@khm It’s the same for me. I felt comfortable identifying as a guy with he/him pronouns, and now I have no idea what I want. I’m getting so many intrusive thoughts of being the other gender paired with urges that feel so close to desire that I can’t even tell. It always causes stress but it’s so scary and so hard to know if I’m just forcing that stress. I wanna go back to before when I knew this was all irrational. I’m just so tired
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@ishdh.2 i feel the exact same only I like being a woman and now it feels like I want to be a guy but I really don’t and I feel like I have to fight to keep my femininity but it’s literally been so hard and makes me feel like I’m lying to myself and that being a woman isn’t like my true self or something and me too everyday is so hard and long and exhausting I just wish things were how they used to be
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I'm a trans man and I've been diagnosed this year. I don't want to give you guys reassurence, but I've never felt like I love the gender I was born into and that I like being a "woman" even slightly. I doubt other trans men feel that way too, thinking about it makes me a little bit dysphoric already. So it's all just your OCD.
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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What’s your experience on: Losing opposite gender attraction? And, False attraction to same gender? I have both and I feel like I don’t know who I am. I can’t parent or be a husband due to the mass panic and anxiety. Just wanted to know if anyone has had both and regained theirself?
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Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
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