it is so weird .. like before last year i never knew what ocd or intrusive thoughts were. i never had them or was worried about them. but it took one horrifying intrusive thought that changed everything for me .. now it’s like recurring over and over .. i just wish it could go away . i wish i never had it. i miss my old self :(

@anonymous1146 Yep it takes ONE thought to traumatize your own Brain into thinking you are a terrible person. In therapy I learned the entire population has intrusive thoughts but people like us just latch on to them and want to know “why”. That helped a little! We aren’t bad people, we just have a harder time releasing them!

@anonymous1146 Have you looked into getting a therapist? They truly are lovely to have, if you or your parent or guardian cannot afford one maybe a school counselor or a close friend. I know it’s hard, but do NOT say you hate yourself you hate the thoughts and how they make you feel not yourself. You’re NOT your thoughts, thoughts aren’t logic. My therapist always tells me when I get an obsessive thought or image to say “maybe… maybe not” or “ this is an OCD based thought and or image and I’m not gonna give it any power“. Ocd does go for what you value and love most and your morals. Although like I said your thoughts they don’t define you. You got this. I believe in you just keep going!! ❤️❤️

@anonymous1146 I’m sorry to hear that, I hope you can soon, find someone to talk with and develop a close connection with. You will be okay.