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This is exactly how my ocd started. I had one intrusive thought one day in college while trying to go to sleep. I thought âwhat If I lost control and hurt all my roommatesâ. I couldnât stop obsessing about why it happened. I laid in bed literally sweating all night going nuts. I have never been the same since. It took ONE thought. Itâs crazy how common this is.
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@anonymous1146 Yep it takes ONE thought to traumatize your own Brain into thinking you are a terrible person. In therapy I learned the entire population has intrusive thoughts but people like us just latch on to them and want to know âwhyâ. That helped a little! We arenât bad people, we just have a harder time releasing them!
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Me too. I was so happy for once and then bam, Iâm hit with this.
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@anonymous1146 Have you looked into getting a therapist? They truly are lovely to have, if you or your parent or guardian cannot afford one maybe a school counselor or a close friend. I know itâs hard, but do NOT say you hate yourself you hate the thoughts and how they make you feel not yourself. Youâre NOT your thoughts, thoughts arenât logic. My therapist always tells me when I get an obsessive thought or image to say âmaybe⌠maybe notâ or â this is an OCD based thought and or image and Iâm not gonna give it any powerâ. Ocd does go for what you value and love most and your morals. Although like I said your thoughts they donât define you. You got this. I believe in you just keep going!! â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
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@anonymous1146 Iâm sorry to hear that, I hope you can soon, find someone to talk with and develop a close connection with. You will be okay.
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i havenât been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and itâs like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I donât think Iâve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts donât go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I donât want to hurt people I donât think idk why my mind is making me think I do Iâve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesnât go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts itâs just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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idk why this is such a recurrent thing for me , I get so scared through the day when Iâm not distracted when I think about psychosis. or being put in a mental hospital that it gives me bad anxiety, one time I had a panic attack at the thought of having it đ I canât pin point if itâs intrusive thoughts because itâs a fear of mine .. or not. I think this is the worst thought / fear I have
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There are moments when something takes over me, like I have to fight myself (literally restrain myself) from acting on my thoughts, like causing harm to my parents or brother. I get these feelings that feel so real, like they are genuinely my own. There are moments when I feel like I like them, and it makes me question whether this is truly OCD or if it's me. Then I wonder whether this is me lying to myself, because I feel the urge to smile at the thought, or feel like I have some pleasure. I check whether I like them, and then I feel like I do, so I stop immediately. I feel like my old self is gone, and I've become this person, and that it was never OCD. Right now, as I type this, I feel like I'm lying to myself. There are moments when I feel like my brain splits, as if this is my new personality. Or there are moments when I feel like it might feel liberating or freeing if I do it. I genuinely feel like this is not OCD. There are moments when I stop the thought, and I feel like it's out of principle, as if I don't truly want to stop at that thought. I truly can't picture this to be my life now. I never had these thoughts in my life until two and a half months ago. It truly makes me question whether it was OCD. I don't get why. I used to view my family as my world, and now my mind is making me scared and feel like my room is my only safe place from them, from me.
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