Tocd

I desparately need some closure, i need answers, i have so many questions but I already spam almost all ocd places regularly but I dont wanna do it to the point where people tell me fuck off to my face. I am aware how aggravating and annoying my posts are but frankly i cant care about that when my life and mental health are breaking down. I just want to get out of this non stop misery but I cant even fucking think, i dont know how to, i dont know what my identity is. This fucking gender shit is making me so depressed I cant move. I can just see even if I "recover" from this now Ill end up realizing im trans later in life and transition. Fucks sake

Username: blazed

Date posted: 146d ago

I know you want answers, I do too :( although, even if we got the answers we wanted we’d doubt that too since that’s what OCD does. I empathize and know it’s really difficult right now but I want you to know that you’re not alone. I’m also struggling with my identity in terms of my sexuality and I have this urge to figure it out. But in the long run, trying to find an answer causes more harm than good. The only way we can overcome this is by accepting uncertainty. This part is the scariest and it’s okay to grieve the loss of not being able to seek the answer we want. Overtime it will become easier and you’ll realize that won’t feel this way forever. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, I hope you feel better 🤍