BeaBr
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- 2y
Religious OCD
Someone has this huge afraid of disappoint God? Like, thinking He is ordering you to do something but deep down, you know it is not Him, but OCD?
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
Yes and before I didn’t know I had OCD so I still have to tell myself daily that I don’t have to go marry someone I don’t want to. Or leave this place I’m at. I thought it was God for 2 years. I’m so sorry you deal with this too
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
I heard a sermon yesterday which the pastor said “maybe you are troubled in spirit because you are disobeying God” and I though it was my case… have you ever experienced this? Like ok I have anxiety because Gos is trying to grab my attention
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
@BeaBr Whenever I didn’t know I had OCD all the time. I kept trying to go back into abusive leadership and relationship situations because my brain was telling me that Is where God was calling me. The biggest way is to always back things up with scripture- and if you struggle to read it or understand it right now due to those thoughts I encourage you to do it with a pastor that understands OCD and the triggers that come with it. This is where I have found freedom on some days is going back to what is Gods real character - not the dictator I’ve been viewing him as.
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
Yes, That’s the way I highly recommend this podcast with pastor mark dejesus who also has OCD https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQYFIj39Wng He summed everything, has more than one hour but worth every second, if you can, listen! ❤️
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
Oh wow I’ve never heard of a pastor who has ocd!!!
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
And he mentions abusive leadership at church, I remembered you ! It’s more common than we think
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
Oh boy I believe we have a pretty similar theme… OCD grabs me making me think I have to be single for the rest of my life and be a missionary in a far place, God only knows how bad I get when this thoughts come, just horrible! Are you handling well?
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
@BeaBr That’s difficult, have they told you that it’s just under the religious OCD? I’m still trying to learn as well. I’ve come a long way for sure but it’s still a daily battle- I believe I’ll get to marry the man I love right now though and stay in this healthy place.
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
For some reason, everybody with OCD ask me if this thoughts are really OCD, maybe because it’s not a common theme… but yes, pastor, psychologists and my mom saw my suffering and told me I don’t have missionary call neither to stay unmarried for the rest of my life… it just that OCD knows no reason, it just knows anxiety and worry I happy that you getting through, I’m trying everyday as well
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
@BeaBr Yes I’ve experienced the same, a lot of assurance that it’s not God- I also have moral scrupulously which could be a part of it too. Praise God that’s not his character!! I think going back to the basis that OCD attacks what we care about most is where it aligns that they are OCD thoughts.
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
Wow you sum up, that is it I believe this is something we got from being afraid to disappoint God, as we so love him, it would be the worst to do something against His will… however, OCD gets into what we love the most and “dress up” as God himself and say lies
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
@BeaBr Yes it is! And yes it’s a massive fear of mine and it would create so much stress that my brain would misfire and send voices that weren’t mine even though I knew I wasn’t possessed I was afraid it was God or a demon. Learning about how OCD can sometimes create voices too was a big help for me. To learn more about the friend that God is and how he’d never condemn us is a gift. I’m grateful to come across your comment if this has helped at all, you’re not alone!
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
I am very happy to talk to you! It helped me to calm down and know that I am not the only one. He is our Father, who loves us and not a dictator, grinding us down with his hands. He assures me that I have no "missionary calling" because what comes from Him brings peace, and what I face is so absurd and desperate that it makes me laugh for someone to say that it is God speaking to me. Unfortunately I have no one to read the Bible with me and make me understand the passages that make me anxious... you know, deep down, we know what He wants from us: that we show mercy and not sacrifice.
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
@BeaBr Yes absolutely!! Also that is okay, I’m not sure where your beliefs lie but I’m a big fan of the Bible project. They literally just share what they’ve studied out of the Bible and it’s awesome.
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
I’m going to search for it, thanks! So your OCD catches you with thinking that you should not marry your husband? Like “oh no she cannot be happy with the man she loves” ? Because it happens to me this way
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
@BeaBr So I was under abusive leadership for roughly two years and they were trying to tell me how their son knew best for me often. I didn’t want to date their son because he’s also just like them saying that people have certain spirits etc including me. I ended up being so stressed and anxious over it that I heard this voice “that’s him” and my brain wouldn’t let it go. I met the guy I love now and was still terrified God would be mad at me if I married him. Those people also were trying to tell me how we aren’t blessed etc, so my mind battles with that and just saying like no he’s a bad person and I have to go with the other guy to be in the will of God. But I’ve learned that’s not true, I get to choose who I marry as long as he loves God too. And God would never call me to an abusive relationship or leadership etc.
Nope!Nope!
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@BeaBr I haven’t gotten to marry him yet but we are on our way to hopefully getting engaged soon! It’s just a daily battle of going back to Gods character and not what those people were saying God is.
BeaBrBeaBr
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- 2y
Dear, I totally got you!!!! I feel so relief knowing that I’m not the only one! Let me share a part of my story: I have this intrusive thought about not getting married, because is a dream of mine, so OCD grabs passages of scripture like Corinthians where Paul says that single people should stay as they are, but he says in a context of persecution! And who has a vocation to be husband/wife knows… but oh boy, how many times I though God wanted me single forever… I’m kind pass this theme now (o hope forever 😅) but I heard these voices too “you are running away from God” or “you are following your flesh” or “marriage is an idol” or worst, I actually heard, it’s a creepy experience indeed, so I feel you… Now it with the missionary thing, I was in a church which spend a lot of time talking about mission in such a way that anyone would feel bad if not travel to preach the gospel, I thought I have the call but God said no, but then I thought I misunderstood and actually needed to go away, so I mixed the thing of being single and do mission… I thought I needed to go to those close country’s and preach… boy, it makes me nervous just to talk about this, I feel so scared 😞 I know what come from God brings peace! My mom use to tell me anyone can see I’m not a missionary, and she assured me I did not… anyway, when I took medications I was soooooo fine, but I stopped and everything came again
Nope!Nope!
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- 2y
@BeaBr That’s seriously so hard!!! Especially when we think it’s coming from God and no matter how often people affirm us it just keeps coming back. I believe we can get to know the character of God though and gain peace and affirm ourselves
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