My brains thoughts are switching a lot lately.. I still wish the thoughts weren’t there but the more I say fuck you to them, the less it brings up more thoughts. Recently all my thoughts have been in the form of “you probably would” for sexual obsessions, which I think is because I’m insecure about how sexual I am even though all I do is masturbate, I’ve never watched proper porn just like sex scenes but my brains making me feel bad for me starting to be sexual from a young age.. so eg when I was about 10, I was on a website called habbo and obviously didn’t know what I was doing or what sex properly was, but someone basically was pretending to flirt and kiss with me etc and I can’t remember what else happened but my brains making me feel guilty about it.. I’m choosing to disregard it cause I can’t change the past and I know I’ll get over it but how do I deal with my brain doing this to me all the time?

Yes! I’m like I want go back to normal and my mind even stops and doubts that

It’s literally like my brains broken it’s hell everyday. You’re so young though! You have so much ahead of you! I’ve been doing cbt therapy and it has helped me. You just have to say whatever to the thoughts.

Yesss it’s like my brains like well do you want to be a pedo etc and I’m like fuck offf it’s literally hell and none of it makes sense but we just have to keep breathing, occupy our minds and keep living because all that matters is our actions and behaviour ❤️

Just know that the thoughts aren’t reality! You are still literally a child yourself haha. Just keep doing what you live and ignore the bully in your head. How I like to describe it is a bully that always bugs you until you stand up to it

And can I include I also discovered masturbation at a young age, and was aroused when I was pretending to be sexual on the website, thinking back ik I was a kid and didn’t know what I was doing but I feel terrible about itv

it’s totally normal it feel sexual when you were a kid and when you’re an adult. i’m 14 and just discovered masturbation a year ago and sometimes it makes me feel bad too, especially when intrusive thoughts (p*do stuff) happen while i’m masturbating

Thanks, I know it’s normal but my mind just can’t let it go and I don’t care about it but my brain keeps making me feel bad about it

Cause it was a random guy and I was way too young to be on there and I remember he typed something like grabs ass and I remember saying oo cheeky.. I know sexuality is a part of being human, butbecause I was only 10 my mind won’t stop bullying me about it

it’s not your fault at all

I literally discovered masturbation at like 7/8 which I know is so normal

for sure! if i may ask, what is your ocd type that you’re stressing over?

There’s different themes and they all switch so it started off as incestual thoughts then due to testing out reactions to new thought s I developed pedophilia ocd mainly about would I want to do this etc or scared of enjoying doing sexual things to a child because I’m sexual even though I would never hurt a child and I work with them

i’m 14 and i have that ocd and thoughts too. it freaking sucks but then my brains like “do you really think it’s sucks”

SAME!!! it’s awful! i was writing my senior letter and i couldn’t even do it, it was so hard. every time i would write “i hope you’re a good person” i would get anxiety and my brain would go “do you really?”

thank you!! you’re amazing

yes ma’am ??

true that. i hope that you’re improving and can live your life the best that you can!❤️