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Great you found a specialist! False memory OCD is worrisome for sure, since trying to find the answer to the question of did this happen leads to more doubt and questions. I can understand why you would have fear about sharing the specific thought. Whatever you decide to do, make sure your caregivers and anyone working with you is at least familiar with False Memory OCD. I wish I could, but I cannot know how anyone would respond to you sharing your specific thought. At least sharing the details as you have done here in this post could be enough to make a referral.