Soocd and rocd

I have the same issues pretty much as you , I’m starting to look at this as we are straight with OCD if that makes sense , like we love the opposite gender just our mind isn’t with us and in a glitch so it likes to tell you other wise . I have the worst anxiety when I think about hanging with my girl because I fear getting thoughts and images but I just keep going

@jzepedaa7 I just want to be happy again without the thoughts killing me 24/7. It is easier for me to know that the soocd thoughts aren’t real because I’ve dealt with them before. But then I find myself blaming that for my rocd. My relationship was so perfect before this. Now I worry that I don’t get turned on or find my boyfriend attractive. When literally before all of this I had no problems.

@kirby7980 I know trust me it’s terrible you don’t know what’s real or fake , this is definitely the worst one . But don’t try to understand or rationalize your thoughts to reverse phycology . When your mind tells you something that you don’t love your boyfriend just be like you are right , I don’t like him at all you get me . Doesn’t mean you don’t just the way to answer to intrusive thoughts / and even if you get images tell your self you love them again doesn’t mean you do or you will it’s just the way out

@jzepedaa7 Yeah I’m just mostly dealing with soocd now when my rocd chills out. But I dont know which one is worse because they both attack the same thing. My relationship. I just want my old self back ughhhh. Because the rocd questioned whether I found him attractive or not and same with the soocd

@jzepedaa7 I just seriously would give ANYTHING no have never had to go through this. It makes me shake 24/7 it’s constantly on my mind, made me stop eating, i zone out when my friends try to talk to me

@kirby7980 Trust me I am literally in the same shoes as you, you aren’t alone . One thing I learned is your ocd attacks what you care about the most which is why it spirals When we are in a relationship . It does not care about your feelings or what you want it’s a bully will lie to you all day just to get a reaction out of tou . So that’s why the only way to beat it is accept the thoughts joke with them agree with them . This will show your mind it doesn’t need to waist energy on bothering you because you don’t even care you get me . It’s not easy it takes practice and full effort everyday .the more you try to push your thoughts away they wil come . So what if those thoughts are in your head ? They don’t define you . Just try to sit with uncertainty and uncomfortableness because no matter how hard we try we won’t have an answer ever

@jzepedaa7 Thank you so much. I’m hoping soon I won’t have to deal with this. It’s really taken a toll on my life and has made me miserable

@kirby7980 I get it trust me I’ve been dealing with it for 9 years now , as hard as it is try to be more positive and don’t have the goal of being better just take it a day at a time cause it’s a process. I prayed so many times “ please let me go back to normal “ I’ve been there before but this is our life we were born with OCD gotta just live it

@jzepedaa7 Yeah but I had soocd 3 years ago and never dealt with it until now. And it’s killing me rn. I know I’ll get through this and I’ll be fine soon. It’s just right now that Really sucks

@jzepedaa7 And rocd soocd is definitely not a fun combo😭

@kirby7980 Just a little motivation , had one of the best times ever with my girlfriend today I feel as hopeful as I ever have 🙏🙏 I gotta say that accepting my thoughts / erp / CBT have been what has helped

@jzepedaa7 Thank you for this!!! A lot of this sucks extra for me right now because it’s long distance😭 but we got this!!!🙌🏻

@kirby7980 100 percent took me 9 years to kind of figure it out lol but there definitely is a way out

@kirby7980 Just keep your vision , and stay true to what you believe you are in your heart and anything else your mind tries to tell you just know it’s bs

@jzepedaa7 Yeah i just look at pics and I’m like is he even cute? Do i love him? Will I get turned on again? Because rn I really want to see him because he’s coming home next week. But then I get thoughts with that sick feeling about how maybe im not going to like it or that things will feel off.

@kirby7980 Try answering all those thoughts with maybe or maybe not , and even try as far as telling yourself , no I don’t think he’s cute no I don’t love him and no I won’t get turned on . Basically don’t question your thoughts and just agree with them , that’ll show your brain you don’t fear it and will lower anxiety and the thoughts . Not easy at first but you will get the hang of it .and just recognize they are not your thoughts and don’t stress about seeing your boyfriend

@kirby7980 For example with hocd whenever I’ll get a thought saying I’m gay , I’d go as far as saying I’m the most gay guy in the world I love dicks etc , or when my mind will tell me you don’t like your gf I’d answer you are right I don’t I’m just gonna hang out with her tonight just cause