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Has anyone ever looked up their birth/natal chart? I did today and started researching and now I worry about things I didn’t worry about before. I feel like I opened up a new phobia.
Has anyone ever looked up their birth/natal chart? I did today and started researching and now I worry about things I didn’t worry about before. I feel like I opened up a new phobia.
My mom’s obsessed with all that stuff, so yes. But I’m not, so she can say whatever random stuff she wants. It doesn’t affect me because I don’t let it.
When I first started with NOCD one of my biggest triggers was astrology relationship related stuff. I grew up with a mother who would tell me if a friendship wouldn’t work out because of our signs, or if I did something she didn’t like she would say “that’s such a Gemini trait.” I never truly believed in it but it started to scare me when I was in serious relationships that we may not work out because of some predestined chart. Especially since the first thing she does when she meets someone is ask what their birthdate is🙄 I’ve learned to accept that I can’t control that stuff but I can control my actions. And I don’t have to know if it’s fate that I’m with my fiancé because I choose to be with him. Astrology is cool but it doesn’t have to control the outcome of your life. Try making some Erps about it. To work on my own I had to read astrology related stuff that said my fiancé and I might not be compatible and just sit with that😅
As someone who wholeheartedly believes in astrology, your natal chart doesn't define who you are. Your natal chart suggests what you're like at your core, similar to genetics in the way that they're with you for life but they don't affect much. In my opinion, your characteristics are mostly defined by learnt behaviours and how you've been brought up to see the world. Even your traits from your natal chart can be controlled and altered throughout your life, you generally have full control over who you are and who you are becoming. Your natal chart just gives guidance about your inner traits
For example, I'm on the cusp of Leo and virgo, Virgos are suggested to be serious and stern, and I know I can be like that sometimes. I switch instantly and go into a serious and stubborn mindset, that might not be wholly because I'm a virgo, but even so, I can still be aware of when I'm like that and how I'm acting, and I can manage it accordingly. Your birth charts give you awareness of what you *can* be like
My OCD has definitely used my horoscope before to latch onto as 'evidence' that my fears are true. Madness when you think about it and I can laugh about it looking back but the fear felt so real. I'd take this as a prime example of OCD looking for evidence of stuff you need to worry about. Tell it you don't need to worry, tell it you don't need to answer these questions.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
I was scrolling on here and now I’m having a panic attack. Someone posted resources and one of them was a NOCD article and I thought that was so great. I clicked on it because I like learning about this disorder and I love NOCD’s resources. But I read that one of the compulsions for pocd is watching cp? I thought that wasn’t a thing with POCD. I literally cannot breathe because I feel like this thing is now possible and I cant calm down. That was the first time I’ve ever seen that stated as a compulsion. I feel like I’m dying. What triggered my spiral in the first place was months ago someone contacted me and told me they watched it but claimed OCD and I felt absolutely horrified. I deleted my account and removed that person entirely. I am freaking out so bad I really can’t seem to breathe right now
New to this app. Do members find it helps, I'm worried I will start obsessing over things I hadn't thought about before when I read other people's OCD triggers...
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