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been watching the start of tiktok videos 4 times
Recently i have been watching a certain part of tiktok videos a magical number of times, has anyone else experienced something similar that can help?
Recently i have been watching a certain part of tiktok videos a magical number of times, has anyone else experienced something similar that can help?
Not exactly the same but I used to watch videos a certain number of times before I could like it š but lately Iāve been using tiktok less and focusing on other things which helps me with this
Stuff on tiktok triggers me especially the manifesting and seeing numbers and that I have to use it or share them for things to happens and stuff.
i have to read out the number of comments, likes, shares and saves on a tiktok. itās very exhausting and i do it in every app. (as well reading the time, date percentage and 4G if i see my data symbol) i have to do it before the next minute comes or i get sum anxiety and compulsions lol
Two things are happening: I get thoughts that just keep looping. They almost feel like song stuck in my head. Also, Iāll imagine something and I feel my stomach drop. Then as the seconds go by I keep getting fragments of the this thought but with different details. For example, itās kinda like how a āvisionā is portrayed. Iāll get a glimpse of the thought and then itāll rapidly expand into something worse every few seconds. I donāt know if Iām causing this or if itās just an automatic thing like any other intrusive thought. It feels unavoidable, idk if this is a compulsion or if itās just another manifestation of an intrusive thought. Apart from that remembering an intrusive thought triggers the full thought again and then it just keeps looping or expanding. I donāt know how to stop any of this. Help?
OK, this might sound really dumb, but when you guys get intrusive thoughts, do they just come once and then go away? Iāve heard that repeatedly thinking about an intrusive thought is considered āchecking,ā but it doesnāt feel like I have any control over how many times it comes up in my head. Itās not like Iām trying to check anythingāit just keeps showing up, almost like itās terrorizing me every time. I canāt seem to stop it from looping, stop remembering it, or prevent it from coming up. Every time it does, I feel horrified, and I already know itās going to horrify me. I donāt think Iām actively trying to see if my feelings have changed, so is this still considered checking? How do other people get an intrusive thought and just move on? Doesnāt it pop up a million times for them too? I always thought that was normal, but now Iām hearing this could be a compulsion, and I feel really confused, scared, and lost. Is this why my OCD feels so extreme? Because I really donāt feel like I can control how many times the thought pops up.
Iām curious how many other people experience this! Iāve been diagnosed with severe OCD for 20 years now, about 10 years ago my little OCD brain came up with a series of words. It is saying everyone in my families name and then something negative, and then something positive. Since my brain attached to this series of words, it hasnāt stopped repeating in my mind. Like I said, itās been 10 years, and this āphraseā is constantly repeating over and over in my head. When itās finished, it just restarts again. My brain is constantly exhausted since itās always talking. Itās kinda hard to word this so idk if itāll make sense to you but let me know if this is something that you might experience as well!
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