So I believe i have done something bad and offended God and now He's gonna punish me and I dont deserve His love and He will punish me in hell forever. It's torturing. Any tips how to deal with religious ocd?
I can only tell you my experience. I’ve spent almost my entire life blaming God when things have gone wrong. Since I was a kid I’ve told myself “you failed at ‘x’ because God wants to punish you for your mistakes and keep you where you belong.” When you think about the origins of that statement, I wasn’t really blaming God, I was blaming myself. We make ourselves unworthy and “bad” on God’s behalf. Usually when we’ve offended our own moral code. Just as you punish yourself on God’s behalf, you can forgive yourself, and I think God has already forgiven you because God has never told you directly that you’ve offended in the first place. You can honor yourself and honor God by respecting your moral code and living by your values.
Okay so here's the point : I'm a muslim and as one, it is not allowed to say or mention anything about God or religion while being in the bathroom. TW : today morning i was completing my biological discharge and had my phone on my hand and was scrolling thru my insta feed. A couple of times i came across some quotations from the Holy Book and I'm obsessing over the fact I might have said them out loud. Which in the circumstances i was, clearly isn't allowed. So now i feel like I have sinned ( which triggers my harm ocd badly, as like killing is also a sin) and i feel like God hates me and will punish me and i have no reason to live. Any uncertainty tips are welcome 💜
@Arjy.is.rec0vrering.from.ocd Well the easiest way to think about uncertainty is to realize that literally every person throughout all of time, even the animals, live with it daily. We, having OCD, and therefore thinking of things in black and white are just especially sensitive to not knowing the answers regarding topics that matter deeply to us. You will just never know what God thinks of you while you’re alive. The highest priests and saints have absolutely no clue what God’s direct opinion of them is. They just life based on their values and what the feel God has guided them to. Please contact suicide hotline or other help if you’re seriously considering taking your life. You have soooo many reasons to live, you’re just not focused on those things at the moment because you’re distressed. I’d be willing to bet my house you aren’t the only Muslim to have spoken about God in the bathroom (if you even actually did). I would never discredit your beliefs so please don’t take this that way, but I would suggest you pray and search your heart as to whether God has really cast all of those people into Hell. Regardless, you know this action violates your beliefs and you can’t be certain if you’ve done it or not, so the best thing you can do as far as taking action is concerned is try not to do it as you go forward. Forgiving yourself is not the same as excusing yourself. God knows your challenges as a human being. Try not to conclude God’s judgement on God’s behalf.
@Agent C Anytime it happens I try to tell to myself that the Almighty Lord knows who i am because He is the Creator of my soul and knows that these unwanted thoughts are not mines but ocd's. Illness's. Thank you so much for taking all your time to write this down for me, i wish you nothing but blossoms along your recovery and sending you the warmest hugs ever. May God bless you❤❤❤❤❤
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