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I used to be very opinionated about basic human rights. I was so strongly against anything that would cause harm to other human beings, like hate crimes, rape etc. but now with my pocd even tho I still am against all that I feel as if I’m one of the people who are causing harm to others and that I should go to jail.I’m generally very empathetic and I can’t watch anything bad on tv cause I just feel bad, but my pocd has ruined me, I feel as if I’ll never be the same and I am so young and so tired, I feel like giving up

Username: Macc200Macc200

Date posted: 2y ago

I was the same, I was 16 when it was at its worse. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t do basic things like put my washing away or even watch TV. It hurt me so bad I felt like giving up too, and I would never wish that upon anyone cause you truly believe you are like that. I promise you it gets better mostly through exposure therapy that you can do at home as I had to do! I can help you, i’ve just turned 18 and i’ve got it under control. You are a good person and you will get better :)

Username: anonymous3606 anonymous3606

Date posted: 2y ago

Aw, I feel the same way. I absolutely am disgusted of rapist, killers, mass shooters, pedophiles. I was always scared of these people my whole life. Now that I deal with POCD i feel like it has ruined me also, and I feel like a horrible person. Worst part is I am a mother and I feel like I am failing as parent and a good person in society.

Username: aretousa aretousa

Date posted: 2y ago

@anonymous3606 You’re not failing, the fact that it disturbs you probes that it’s not you. You prob have this subtype cause it disgusts you and you don’t wanna cause harm to your children. Thoughts are just thoughts they’re not representative of who we are. You’ll get through this!!💞

Username: YesNoMaybeSoYesNoMaybeSo

Date posted: 2y ago

I used to have this subtype and I had never felt so low and alone in my entire life. I also just felt like I’d rather die than have those thoughts. But through researching about OCD and realising other people were going through similar/the same things and realising that they’re simply thoughts and I don’t want to take any action on them and the fact I was disgusted by what was going on highlighted to me even more that I wasn’t a bad person. Please remember that the fact it’s making you feel this way shows that you’re not a bad person and a good person if anything. I feel like with OCD we obsess about things and thoughts that seem abnormal but that just feeds our fears even more. So many people will have thoughts like these but the difference is they let them float by like a cloud. You are able to overcome what you’re going with some help from a therapist and researching the condition 😊

Username: 0Aqi0

Date posted: 5y ago

**tw; mentions of pocd and harm ocd** Sorry in advance for the long post. I feel as if I should address pocd, because talking about it to people who understand seems to help me a lot. I’ve always had OCD, however, I didn’t get this particular theme until I was 17 (I’m 19 now) and a senior in high school. Pedophilia was briefly mentioned in my psych course, and my brain went absolutely nuts telling me “what if I’m capable of being that.” Similar things have happened in my past; OCD tricked me into believing I was a murderer when I was around 7 because of crime segments on the news, and OCD later tricked me into thinking I could be a serial killer, but pocd arguably is the worst theme to have and all of you that have it are literally the strongest people alive. On top of that, I’ve only ever been attracted to older adults, yet this theme still persists. I just want to go back to the version of me that I was before I got this theme. If I had a do over in life I would have never taken that course, it straight up ruined my life. I will literally take any other theme over pocd at this point honestly. Thank you for reading if you’ve gotten this far, you’re a very patient person lmao bless.

Username: TPD

Date posted: 1y ago

I worry that OCD is making me immoral

I’ve always been a huge feminist, anti-racist, anti-sexual assaulters, etc. Basically against everybody anti-human rights. But because my OCD has been trying to convince me that I’m a sexual assaulter, a pedophile, racist, etc. (basically everything that goes against my morals), it also tries to tell me that I should sympathize with people I used to be against. Sometimes I’ll read about, say, teens committing sexual assault, and in the past I would have firmly said “they need to be punished”, whereas now I think “well, what if they didn’t know better? I made a mistake when I was a teen; what if they thought it was okay?” I never say these out loud because I dont want to make real victims feel bad, obviously. And if I hear someone has been racist, I’ll think, “What if they’re like me?” I still believe we need to eradicate sexual assault, racism, homophobia, etc, but I can’t help but think I’m a part of the problem, so sometimes I find myself sympathizing with “bad people”. It’s really messing my mind up. I don’t know what to think. Does anyone feel the same way or have any tips?

Username: hopefulxmess

Date posted: 28w ago

Can’t take much more

My entire life anytime I saw something on the news or heard about someone hurting a child sexually or beating/killing them, I would get so angry and sick over it. I still do but ever since developing ocd, my ocd tells me i’m just like those people and really tries to make me believe it and question myself. This theme also latches onto my own family and my children. It’s the hardest and worst theme i’ve had. It makes me not want to live and is so unbearable😩😢

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