NeverGiveUp
- Date posted
- 2y
Question
How bad can hocd get if you keep giving yourself reassurance and checking all the time?
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- 2y
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NeverGiveUpNeverGiveUp
- Date posted
- 2y
How could someone in the world have the same story as me? I've been and always have been straight and now out of nowhere I'm having uncertainty about my sexuality due to Intrusive thoughts. so how could someone with my story turn out to be gay? That was very triggering.
NicaNica
- Date posted
- 2y
@NeverGiveUp Everything is temporary and there are millions—if not billions—of endless possibilities and choices out there. As pure said, stop seeking reassurance so much. It is only making OCD worse and you are doing g yourself absolutely no favors. You need to see a specialist, as many others have told you.
NeverGiveUpNeverGiveUp
- Date posted
- 2y
@Nica But how will I ever know myself if I'm not allowed reassurance? Other people know their sexuality confidently without OCD so how can I sit here not knowing who I am anymore? It's scary. If I could get a specialist I would but it's not as simple for me I'm afraid.
NicaNica
- Date posted
- 2y
@NeverGiveUp You get to know yourself when you gain confidence, life experience, and get professional help. You are continually running in circles, making yourself worse. Reality check is since the moment you joined here, all you’ve done if made yourself worse by doing all the reassurance seeking you’ve done on this app. You’ve dug yourself so deep into the OCD home that no one on here can that is not a professional get get you out by giving you reassurance or trying to calm you down. You have personal agency—choose to professionally get better with the help of an OCD specialist as soon as you can.
nobody03nobody03
- Date posted
- 2y
@Nica but what if you can’t get professional help due to financial issues? what can someone do then who dug themselves so deep in this OCD hole
Jessy32Jessy32
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- 2y
@pureohasnoperks Wow! Let me stop you there your comment it’s not helping this person at all he ain’t gay and No one the world just becomes gay out of nowhere im personally from the lgbtq community and I didn’t decide to be gay I was born this way we are born this way no religion no mental health no body can turn some one gay or straight it’s JUST SO-OCD stop triggering
ocdisnotcoolocdisnotcool
- Date posted
- 2y
@Jessy32 Thank you so much for this.
NicaNica
- Date posted
- 2y
@nobody03 There are options that NOCD can give you if you reach out to them and work with them. There have been plenty of posts here about being in another country but still seeing a therapist on here. They also have payment plans. You also need to look into insurance. This is where personal agency comes in: what are YOU going to do with your life? It’s up to you to decide and work on. But what’s happening now does nothing to help and y’all know that.
SomeonepleasehelpSomeonepleas...
- Date posted
- 2y
It can get severe and you’ll just dig yourself in a deep hole like I did brother
NicaNica
- Date posted
- 2y
Extremely bad.
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Think logically. Literally. Take me as an example. I have hocd and my obsession is “what if I’m gay”. I’ve liked girls my whole life, I can still get aroused by them and I can’t get the same instinctive reaction from a guy. So I can’t be gay. Sometimes ocd will go to something else once you prove it wrong. Maybe like. “What if I’m bi” again I can only get aroused by girls. Sometimes when I’m not thinking about it I can even get aroused when sitting next to a girl or when I’m sitting next to one or even when I’m touching one in a non sexual way. Something that never happens or has happened with a guy in my life. Don’t start panicking. Just “realise” who you are and who you’ve been.
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- 13w
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geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 13w
About hocd
This shit has to be one of the most confusing subtypes of ocd because no matter what you will never find clarity. When it started it wasn’t as bad and confusing because it was mostly anxiety. But when it started getting physical that’s when it got extremely confusing because I feel tension and fear when thinking of gay stuff but while testing I get arousal sensations so the big question is “if I am afraid of it how can my body respond as if I’m into it and if I’m into it how does my body respond with fear as if I’m not” and it’s endless. I wish I never started testing my arousal so I never started getting groinals to gay stuff in the first place. But there’s no going back now.
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