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I am scared there are not intrusive thoughts anymore. It is not like that that something triggers the thoughts. They are just questions which cannot be answered like for example why I am the most aroused by lesbian porn. And it feels like I am recovered but it’s not the same. I just cannot see the things like I used too cuz the unanswered questions and thoughts are still in the background somewhere…

User type: NOCD Alumni

Username: EmilyCruce

Date posted: 113d ago

I’m so sorry your dealing with such distressing thoughts. Intrusive thoughts can come in many forms including questions! When OCD tells us we need to answer these questions it can be so difficult not to do that. But, we have to practice non-engagement techniques because they are what is going to help us in the long run! Maybe, maybe not statements to the questions can be very beneficial. Best of luck!

Username: pureohasnoperks

Date posted: 113d ago

it’s the feeling that i’ll never be the same. You said it perfectly because that’s what gives me anxiety, I yearn for that feeling. Even if I like a guy, there’s always that feeling :(

Username: mrgg11

Date posted: 113d ago

@pureohasnoperks me too

Username: jag92

Date posted: 113d ago

Me too!

Username: jag92

Date posted: 113d ago

@jag92 I feel exactly the same as you …and it’s like my brain has been going you’re missing out on what you truly need which is a lesbian partner but that’s not true because I love being with a man …but we’ve been together 6 years and have a baby I’m just not as sexual with him as I used to be which is so confusing! Sometimes I don’t want him to touch me in a sexual way! I’ve had a drunken lesbian experience in the past which is coming back to haunt me too 😭

Username: polishgirl

Date posted: 113d ago

@jag92 Same! I have also this kind of experience :/