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I noticed this chat and wanted to ask for help, when I was younger I would engage in weird stuff like dry humping my dog then in my twenties I remember vaguely letting my dog lick down there It has not left my mind since it popped up and I cant stopfeeling so ashamed or questioning why I thought this was a normal thing to do I keep trying to figure out exactly when it happened, like dates times and my mind just goes into over drive I'm so scared I'm a bad person or a criminal I dont do anything like this now
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@b2192 Hey are you still active on here?
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were you sexually abused as a child? I was, and in return it affected my sexuality my entire life. (including taking part in what you had mentioned) I don't believe you're 'attracted' to animals so much as your body remembers what happened, and responds according to that situation. Bodies and minds are difficult to understand..
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Our bodies react to things that aren’t even sexual sometimes in a sexual way!! Try to remember that even if you’ve had an experience with an animal like that or if you have a physical response that it has nothing to do with what you actually feel. Sometimes our bodies respond to things in a way that feels sexual but remember that things like fear and other uncomfortable emotions can engage a sexual reaction, like how men can get erections from fear- doesn’t mean they are “turned on” by the situation, it’s just a physical response. Also everyone does weird sexual things as a kid too I try to remember that
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@queenquinn thank you so much for your reassurance ❤️ but I still feel a bit like a freak, it’s so difficult having ocd you never know if you’re doubting yourself because of your illness of if that’s who you are.. but I needed to hear that (compulsions aside) I’ve never reached out to people who are going through similar things and this is the first time I’ve opened up
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Yes exactly!! And so many obsessions can be taboo too so I feel like more of a freak from that too! I’m glad you chose to open up. Talking about it and reading online helped me the most to know people have the exact “crazy” thoughts and you’re not alone!!
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I’m pretty sure I wasn’t, I can’t remember anything of the sort, I know that I was exposed to sexual encounters when I was younger as I had an older sister who told me about them, and I know obviously you have that thing with children your own age like you show me yours and I’ll show you mine but it’s like I can’t get it out of my head and I feel suffocated
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Hey are you still active on this account?
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(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I’ve been increasingly worried that I’m a zoophile (among other things) and that I’m attracted to my family dog. I love him and I take care of him—I take him out to poop and pee, I play with him, and I feed and water him. But I get nervous when I have to be around him for a long time—I get these thoughts and they just won’t stop. I’ll find myself looking at my dog’s privates and having these strange urges. I feel horrible—like I could’ve done something to him or touched him inappropriately and conveniently don’t remember. I don’t know what to do…
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18+ TW! Involves sexual content I have learning disabilities which means im always going to be 3-5 years mentally behind from my actual age… when I was 14 I remember finding people saying they work with kids “attractive” and I remember mastu*** over a kid around 5+ but when I was 14 I was either mentally age 11 or 9. So I didn’t know it was wrong, and as soon as I realised I stopped. People say I was young and it’s okay but I remember finding people saying they even walked past a nursery “attractive” but I don’t know if this is even the right word. Maybe cute? Because I find different emotions hard to tell the difference between, so maybe it’s cute rather than attractive. I never ever had intentions to do anything to younger individuals, it was just me finding people saying they worked with them etc attractive… which my ocd now plays on, because my friend mentioned they were working with kids but idk if it was the real me or not but I genuinely felt like I found it attractive and it was giving my so many groinal responses which then made me feel genuinely aroused like I wanted to do things. This plays on my mind because my ocd will always say “but you did/do find stuff like this attractive” but this literally stops me from eating, sleeping or anything. I can’t break from my compultions because what if I do genuinely find it attractive. I don’t think it’s even attractive maybe it’s cute? Like I find it cute… but cuteness can give people feelings down there I guess. I think because if my learning disabilities I found it hard to know the difference between “attraction” and cute so I did stuff over it because it gave me that feeling down there but that could of been cuteness feeling. I just need some support on this.
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so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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