Sonatic ocd

Hi I’m new to this group. I’ve had ocd and very bad anxiety disorder since I was a kid and only got progressively worse as I grew up. I’m 26 now. I had some somatic/sensorimotor ocd while growing up and feeling or worrying about health concerns that aren’t actually there… anyway about 5 weeks ago I randomly started feeling like I had to go pee all the time? I don’t have any pain or anything just the horrible constant feeling like I need to go pee. I’ve gotten checked for a uti multiple times. My pcp suspects it could be being exacerbated by the anxiety because it’s so distressing to me it’s almost all I think about. My ocd has convinced myself that I now have some chronic bladder problem. I notice it’s not as bad at night when I’m relaxed (thanks to medication) and about to fall asleep. I just am so scared that it’s never going to go away and I’m going to have to deal with this for the rest of my life and I can’t do that…. Was just wondering if anyone else ever dealt with this symptom? I know our brains are powerful but sometimes it just feels so real. 😣😣

I have to get my wisdom teeth removed on the 21st, I don't know how to deal eith this as I have a fear of needles, blood/gore, sedation, and the biggest one that has nearly sent me to the psych ward multiple times already this summer: emetophobia. I genuinely don't know what to do besides beg my primary doctor for Xanax before the surgery. Whenever I am presented with a fear I have, like the list above, I will tend to shake uncontrollably to the point of having sore muscles and it looks like I'm having an epileptic seizure because of how violent I shake and that's simply not plausible if I need to be sedated and given shots before my surgery to knock me out. I don't know what to do anymore. I was prescribed zoloft because of the fears but my fear of being sick is so strong I can't even take the medicine because I'm afraid of the side effects, and I also generally don't like the idea of ssris anyways but that's the main reason. My girlfriend said she'll be there for me on the day of surgery thankfully so that's good and I'm not worried about waking up too much or tje pain I'm jist worried about the needles and getting sick because they stuff an obnoxious amount of cotton in your mouth when you get teeth like that dislodged from your face. I'm worried about choking on blood because I'll be laying down for the surgery obviously and that much blood will definitely go down my throat and i could be sick

My OCD diagnosis is still very new, but now that I know what it is, it is clearly something I’ve had for as long as I can remember. Contamination/bugs and health have been a consistent theme since childhood, but religious/existential themes emerged during adolescence. Around that same time, there was also a good deal of trauma, and during middle school I started experiencing hallucinations. Tactile (like bugs crawling on me or biting me, an eyelash being stuck in my eye, but nothing was really there); visual (like moving shadows or things that would dart past in my periphery, and then I would just have intrusive thoughts of scary things around corners or under things); and auditory (an angry male voice that grumbles or yells indistinctly, or a high pitched noise like a microphone/speaker feedback but muffled and less sharp). Because of the religious denomination I grew up in, I initially assumed these were demons and tried to address it that way, but when I was 14 or 15, it occurred to me that those voices/sounds sounded like the way I felt, and the visual/tactile experiences happened during times of stress too — and so all of those experiences could just be seen as an expression of a fragmented part of myself. That acceptance didn’t make them go away — I still experience them now and I’m in my 30s — but it made those experiences less scary and more manageable. I also see now how these all pop up specifically when OCD obsessions are super triggered and when I’m super sleep deprived. Anyway! Since this diagnosis, and talking about the hallucinations at all, are new to me, I am wondering who else has had similar experiences. I don’t really know how much of the hallucination experience is OCD versus trauma, but it seems like this might all make sense under the “quasi-hallucination” label.