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Me to, when I first got hocd, I was checking everyone out, males and females, I had so many of the symptoms that described hocd, and now I don't have as many, my anxiety is no where near the same as it was. It becomes normal to us, and it gets easier, it just don't go away fully! Every day I wake up questioning myself, doubting myself.

Just tell yourself maybe. The OCD mind will always do that to your

What do you do now @rile20?

Or what did you do to help you? I’m straight and always have loved women but for whatever reason it drives me crazy

I still have hocd, it's just got easier, I think because it's almost been a year now and the anxiety isn't as strong, I had about three therapy sessions, I stayed busy, I went to gatherings and I was on sertaline (anti depressants) I came off them, which helped I believe! The main thing I am trying to do, is avoid social media, Facebook, twitter and Instagram! We do compulsions all the time, scrolling through Instagram, you see a model and you ask yourself the same question "is she attractive?", Then you scroll on and see a male, and you ask yourself if you find them attractive? I came off social media about 8 weeks ago, and I felt brilliant, I re downloaded it all, and the past week I've felt rubbish! So since Tuesday I've not been on neither!

I do that too. Has it gotten better in terms of your relationships with opp sex? Is it enjoyable?

I still have doubt in my mind, some days more than others, I always want reassurance. I've always loved women since I was a kid, I'm now 28, never doubted myself, until one day a gay bloke came on to me in a bar on holiday, I was drunk, I told him to do one (I was with my girlfriend). Sure be it the next morning I woke up with this horrible thought, and my life has changed since that day!

With social media

It did get better, my libido went completely, when I got rid of social media it came back a bit, I started looking at girls and enjoying it! Lately has gone a little south! I think that's what your asking? Lol

So muck mental anguish with me. It’s brutal. Can’t focus on anything else. I need advice with it. Today it’s really bad. Like a bad brain fog

I started last week with ocd specialist. He told me to just say maybe. I worry I’ll never be normal again. I was completely fine at one point in my life. Now it’s so hard

Agreeing with my thoughts causes me anxiety

How long have you had it now? People say you need to accept your thoughts, let them be there, it's hard to do, If I get an intrusive thought I try and remind myself it's hocd, and that it's just temporarily there. I'm going through this all my self, I think my worst stages are behind me (I hope), but I'm still a long way from being back to my old self, every day I doubt myself, just have hope, and remember who you was before all this, how did it all start for you? I believe learning as much as you can about our condition is good to.

I was completely normal and 3 years ago it all changed. It first started with the sensation to pee all the time which was def OCD, then I started getting panic attacks, and floating anxiety all day long. Then about a year ago I’ve had HOCD. It literally switches from really bad floating anxiety to HOCD which causes be anxiety. I get so frustrated bc it impairs my quality of life so much. I can’t really enjoy myself bc I’m bogged down by this. It’s embarrassing too. The thoughts cause a lot of anguish. I’m reframing thoughts to and sometimes I feel better but for most part I feel terrible and it makes me depressed