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Me to, when I first got hocd, I was checking everyone out, males and females, I had so many of the symptoms that described hocd, and now I don't have as many, my anxiety is no where near the same as it was. It becomes normal to us, and it gets easier, it just don't go away fully! Every day I wake up questioning myself, doubting myself.
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Just tell yourself maybe. The OCD mind will always do that to your
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What do you do now @rile20?
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Or what did you do to help you? I’m straight and always have loved women but for whatever reason it drives me crazy
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I still have hocd, it's just got easier, I think because it's almost been a year now and the anxiety isn't as strong, I had about three therapy sessions, I stayed busy, I went to gatherings and I was on sertaline (anti depressants) I came off them, which helped I believe! The main thing I am trying to do, is avoid social media, Facebook, twitter and Instagram! We do compulsions all the time, scrolling through Instagram, you see a model and you ask yourself the same question "is she attractive?", Then you scroll on and see a male, and you ask yourself if you find them attractive? I came off social media about 8 weeks ago, and I felt brilliant, I re downloaded it all, and the past week I've felt rubbish! So since Tuesday I've not been on neither!
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I do that too. Has it gotten better in terms of your relationships with opp sex? Is it enjoyable?
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I still have doubt in my mind, some days more than others, I always want reassurance. I've always loved women since I was a kid, I'm now 28, never doubted myself, until one day a gay bloke came on to me in a bar on holiday, I was drunk, I told him to do one (I was with my girlfriend). Sure be it the next morning I woke up with this horrible thought, and my life has changed since that day!
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With social media
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It did get better, my libido went completely, when I got rid of social media it came back a bit, I started looking at girls and enjoying it! Lately has gone a little south! I think that's what your asking? Lol
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So muck mental anguish with me. It’s brutal. Can’t focus on anything else. I need advice with it. Today it’s really bad. Like a bad brain fog
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I started last week with ocd specialist. He told me to just say maybe. I worry I’ll never be normal again. I was completely fine at one point in my life. Now it’s so hard
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Agreeing with my thoughts causes me anxiety
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How long have you had it now? People say you need to accept your thoughts, let them be there, it's hard to do, If I get an intrusive thought I try and remind myself it's hocd, and that it's just temporarily there. I'm going through this all my self, I think my worst stages are behind me (I hope), but I'm still a long way from being back to my old self, every day I doubt myself, just have hope, and remember who you was before all this, how did it all start for you? I believe learning as much as you can about our condition is good to.
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I was completely normal and 3 years ago it all changed. It first started with the sensation to pee all the time which was def OCD, then I started getting panic attacks, and floating anxiety all day long. Then about a year ago I’ve had HOCD. It literally switches from really bad floating anxiety to HOCD which causes be anxiety. I get so frustrated bc it impairs my quality of life so much. I can’t really enjoy myself bc I’m bogged down by this. It’s embarrassing too. The thoughts cause a lot of anguish. I’m reframing thoughts to and sometimes I feel better but for most part I feel terrible and it makes me depressed
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You’ve just described me! I too had the constant need to pee alll the time before. But now it’s not that evident. Like when I first got it I was trying to reassure myself so much I was like “so I know I am straight but I just find women better looking” I used to say that before and now it feels like it means something :( I used to not feel absolutely anything with women! Maybe jealousy, but nothing else! Now it feels so reao
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Pocd feels real again and I can’t tell if I’m actually attracted or not. can’t believe it got this bad again. I used to be able to go “no I don’t like that, go away” and now it feels like I do like it and want it, and it’s starting to linger longer so it feels more real. I’m avoiding checking but I’m so scared that what if it’s true. Is it because I have not been doing my exposures? I’m not sure, but every time a 14 year old person comes to my head, I keep hearing something go “they’re attractive” and it sounds like me so I panic, and it makes me even more scared because I’m not feeling bad about it??? I saw some kid at Walmart that had long black hair and my brain kept saying shit and no matter how much I say I don’t feel that way, it won’t shut up, i want to check 1000 times to make sure. But I know it’s not worth it. I’m trying so hard
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1. Thoughts about Not Loving My Boyfriend: • “What if I don’t love him?” • “I feel like I’ve lost my feelings for him.” • “I don’t feel love the way I used to.” 2. Fear of Changing or Being Different: • “What if I’ve changed and this is the real me now?” • “What if I’ve grown out of the relationship?” 3. Doubt About Attraction: • “I’m not attracted to him anymore.” • “I feel numb when I look at him.” 4. Thoughts of Disconnection and Irritation: • “I feel irritated when he shows affection.” • “I feel bored or disconnected when we talk.” • “Why do I feel like I can’t stand him sometimes?” 5. Fear of Denial: • “What if I’m in denial and I’m just pretending to love him?” • “What if all these thoughts are true?” 6. Fear of Being a Bad Person: • “I’m a terrible person for feeling this way.” • “I’m ruining my relationship and hurting him.” 7. General Anxiety About the Future: • “What if I’ll fall for someone else in the future?” • “What if I’ll never feel love again?” 8. Intrusive Thoughts from the Past: • “I had violent thoughts about my dad.” • “I worried I was a pedophile after seeing a video.” Feelings Associated with These Thoughts: 1. Numbness and Emotional Disconnection: • Feeling emotionally flat or unable to access love or joy. 2. Guilt and Shame: • Feeling like a bad person or partner. 3. Hopelessness and Despair: • Feeling like things will never get better. • Believing i am stuck this way forever. 4. Irritation and Frustration: • Getting annoyed when my boyfriend shows affection. 5. Fear and Panic: • Experiencing overwhelming anxiety when questioning my feelings. 6. Sadness and Confusion: • Crying frequently, feeling lost, or not understanding why i feel this way. Compulsions I Engage In: 1. Reassurance Seeking: • Constantly asking others if everything is okay or if your feelings are normal. 2. Researching and Googling: • Searching for answers about ROCD, anxiety, and relationships online. • Checking forums like the NOCD app for reassurance. 3. Mental Checking and Analysis: • Constantly checking if i feel love, attraction, or connection. • Analyzing every interaction and emotion to see if they’re “right.” 4. Confessing: • Telling your boyfriend or others about your thoughts to relieve guilt or doubt. 5. Avoidance: • Pulling back from conversations or interactions with my boyfriend due to anxiety. 6. Comparing: • Comparing your current feelings to how you used to feel at the beginning of the relationship. 7. Self-Criticism: • Judging yourself harshly and believing i am a terrible person. FEELING SO REAL I’m struggling with ROCD and it’s consuming me. My intrusive thoughts make me feel like I don’t love my boyfriend, that I’ve changed, or that I’m a terrible person. These thoughts make me feel numb, disconnected, and hopeless. My compulsions include constant reassurance-seeking, analyzing my feelings, researching online, and confessing my fears. It’s exhausting, and I’m desperate to feel like myself again. Does anyone relate to this? How do you cope?
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Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
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