Today I had to talk about hearing God and it brought up all the old questions of if the loud intrusive thoughts I’d hear were God and if I’m marrying the wrong person and if I’m in the wrong place. Is there anyone that understands or can relate to this fear?? I want to peacefully marry the man who is good to me and loves God, not the one who’s been abusive along with his family. Idk how to fight today.
Like is this God or is it just OCD
@Anonymous_2 This is OCD remember, this is OCD this is OCD keep telling yourself that God is not in your head. God isn’t telling you who and who not to love God doesn’t control your thoughts. God doesn’t do any of that I struggle very hard remembering all this as well it’s very hard for when you are dealing with that and unable to explain to your partner how it’s affecting you because the uncertainty. remember, take a deep breath, breathe out and remember you can make the choices in your life. remember this; you are not a mind reader you cannot read Gods or anyone elses mind. you don’t know how they feel. you don’t know what God thinks/does. uncertainty is there and I know it could be distressing but you have to remember that ERP is there to help reduce the reminiscing and worry and stress about it.
Hi! I used to have this. I reject the idea that God audibly speaks to people today. He has given us His Word, when we read it we know His character and how He wants us to live! I don’t understand the last part, but I hope you are not in an abusive situation.
I’m not I’m in a healthy relationship but I feel convinced God wants me to go back to forgive and be with the abusive people.
@Anonymous_2 I see. That is a rough intrusive thought. I’ve actual had a similar one about God wanting me to marry a not nice person. It goes against our desires. We have to fight those times of intense stress with uncertainty and not make any quick decisions during that time. But it’s also important to understand what is an intrusive thought vs. not and in your case what is from God or not. Learning God’s character helped me be able to discern what is from God and what is not. Hebrews 1:2 says God speaks to us through His son and not prophets anymore. The pattern of how we know God’s will is by reading the Bible and living it out and the Holy Spirit helps us understand and we pray to Him to praise Him, confess sin, pray for others and share our needs. If you’re very concerned about hearing an audible voice or confused like I was a video that helped me on YouTube is Justin Peters:Hearing From Heaven. But the more we learn who He is through His word the easier it is to discern. Sorry I wrote so much. You are SO strong. 🙏🙏
@hellopeople Thank you so much seriously this helped a lot, i really want to marry the man I’m with currently. I’ll look into that video you sent
Thank you I think maybe God does speak audibly sometimes but that there’s no way I’d hear him audibly so much when people in the Bible only heard him audibly less than 5. I’m trying to just breath and rest
I have grown up in a Christian community and kind of always been around people who believe Christianity or even catholic. In the past few years I’ve really dove deep into my faith and honestly felt good about myself sometimes but overall terrified and like I’m a horrible person if I do one thing wrong or make a wrong sin. I’m also not sure if I completely believe in all the traditional Christian practices anymore. But I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 5 months and everything is going great. We communicate and he’s so loving and respectful and I honestly don’t have any major issues In the relationship. I used to have a big fear of men starting when I was like 7 aboit my grandpa or my dad trying to rape me (even though they are good men and showed no real signs of it). But it ruined my relationship with them both for awhile til it eventually went away. I always told myself it was because the “spirit” of ocd was rebuked by Jesus but I honestly don’t know. Now I’m dealing with a more extosential or religious ocd where I’m terrified I’m a horrible person for being in a relationship and almost feel worse about myself if I get closer to God. I also feel like if I get too close to God then I have to choose between Him and my bf and I can’t have both. It’s driving me in San and I feel like if I tell anyone any of this they’ll tell me to just break up with my bf even though there isn’t anything wrong in our relationship. Idk what to do and it’s so draining
Hi bear with me I don’t know how long this is going to be (coming back after writing it way longer than I expected I just needed to get this out) but I’ve beenn struggling with this. So basically me and my ex let’s call him Gus just started talking and hanging out again cuddling kissing yk and he broke up with me because he had feelings for another girl but I’m actually really glad we didn’t work out the first time I wasn’t ready for a relationship. my relationship with God wasn’t where I wanted it to be. He is also a Christian so I kept telling myself it would be good which maybe it would’ve been but I still should’ve haven it time but I still rushed into it. We had been friends for like 4 years before tho so it felt natural. I felt good when we broke up it hurt and I missed him. Fast forward 5 months and we hangout again for the first time we cuddle and he kissed me. he’s still confused about what he wants he says he doesn’t want to hurt me again and doesn’t want it to end like last time also doesn’t know if we should keep acting the way we have been as just friends. I was really mad at myself at first I had 5 whole months to get back to where I wanted to be with God but I didn’t and I just kept going back and trying to redo it in my head which is what happened the first time and is why I think I felt stuck for so long. I kept thinking only if it was good the first time and only if I blah blah blah just going in circles you guys know the drill. Now it’s gotten better I’ve forgiven myself because I know God has too and I just have been spiraling. first I convinced my self I should go no contact for two weeks but I realized that was me trying to go back and control the past which is not my call I’ve been feeling a lot better about giving the whole thing to God and not stressing about the past or future just trying to live in the present but every time I think of completely letting that feeling that this isn’t gonna work or that I’m ignoring God go I get stressed again. I’m scared that He is trying to tell me to get out before it goes wrong again but I’m not listening I’m just scared I’m having false peace because I’m getting what I want if it’s ok to figure things out with Gus. On the other hand sometimes God gives us things we want when we finally learn to let it go and I have I’m ok with being alone romantically it’s not a need but I do desire it and I know God puts desires in our heart according to His will. The break up and the whole situation taught me so many things that I need to learn and how to really just let it go and give it to God. I keep trying to picture both scenarios in my head 1 us not together me just growing in God alone and not worrying about Gus and letting him go and 2 us being together and me being happy which him while not feeling like I’m not listening to God and just be at peace. I’m trying to stop imagining them it’s taking to much out of me my brain is exhausting but I can’t helps but feel like I’m ignoring God. Like I know I shouldn’t worry about the future but what if God is trying to tell me something and then I go to what if Jesus comes back tomorrow and I’m still pursuing Gus even if I don’t know what that means but I really am ignoring God and I don’t get to go with Him to heaven. I feel so safe with Gus the ocd never bothers me when I’m with him I let him touch my face and be on me and it’s so relieving to have that I trust him so much and i really don’t trust people that way. I fell asleep on him and ifkyk id let him bring me food and I’d eat it I just feel so comfortable with him I can talk to him about anything and we’re doing a plan on the Bible app together and he has helped me grow in my faith which feels wrong for some reason too like talking to him did. He just feels so safe and that’s really rare for me which I think should mean something right? I don’t know if it’s conviction or condemnation or just the ocd it would be so easy to blame it on the 2nd two but that feels wrong. Sorry this got so long thank you if you stuck around for the whole thing I really appreciate it.💗
I need help everyone. My thoughts have been getting worse… I haven’t used my ERP because it feels too scary and too real and so I am caught in this spiral of doing compulsions with every other thought that I have. I have thoughts about that bad guy that are so horrible and then I think that the bad guy is talking to me so I do compulsions and desperately want GOD to believe me when I say I don’t mean the thoughts, but then it creates doubt about whether or not I actually do mean the thoughts. And now I am afraid of my own thoughts This makes me want to fix ALL of the thoughts and feelings that I have to prove even more to myself and to GOD that I don’t mean these thoughts. On top of all of this, I am trying to convince myself that it’s OCD and not me at all. Does anyone have this and can anyone help? I am so tired and scared and burnt out…
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