- Date posted
- 2y
Couple of things. Please help?
1st thing is- can ocd make it seem like you are forcing yourself to think of your intrusive thoughts? For example the last few days I’ve been okay if you will. And then once or a twice a day i have a moment where it will be like I’m fine, but then me and my brain will say why are we thinking positively we are supposed to be thinking about xyz (Dahmer in my case). And it doesn’t feel like ocd brain it feels like it’s actually me. Can anyone relate? I know it’s reassurance but i just don’t want to be crazy. Like and it feels like I’m trying to trigger myself or something. Like i have to cook hamburger at work and looking at the raw meat usually doesn’t bother me at all and then my brain was like why aren’t you triggered it should remind you of Dahmer. 2nd thing is- how can you tell if the workforce you work at is bad for your mental health. Like I’ve never struggled mentally before so now im just trying to learn why it happened to me out of the blue. I like my job and i love to cook but the people are super toxic. So it’s not the job it’s mainly the people and how hard i work. But like when people say “this isn’t good for my mental health” its just really confusing because im struggling to figure out what that even means. I don’t anyway i just feel a lot of different things but little all at once. Like i am struggling with 100 different things but i hardly feel anything. Like i hardly have any anxiety towards my intrusive thoughts and it’s scary. I just feel numb like i feel no emotion or something. I know this is reassurance seeking but i just need to know that im not crazy.